Surrender-mylove ♥

2009-08-17T01:10:00.002+08:00

Hello all aliens. Please relink me at:

http://send-myheart-toyou.tumblr.com/

Know why, cause blogger sucks. ^^V I won't be deleting this blog away though. But RELINK ME OH-KEHS! Teehees. (; Tyvm, i love you mortals. Adios. :D

sinyi: I not idiot. ): Roars.
Yuye: Hahahas! I agree. ^^
aloy/squirrel: Yea, i really upload. Hahas, don't sian lahh. You
always also have bird face de. :D

No more.

2009-08-16T20:20:00.000+08:00

I can't find the ring. Fate has ended. I can only watch over you from afar. You still live inside my heart, and that's a fact that cannot be denied. Or maybe we could start it all over again. I don't know. Nothing to say. Today never go visit LWX. I hope tmr can go visit him.

P/s: I'm sorry.

Loving you as a part of me.

2009-08-15T01:17:00.018+08:00

Outing to Botanic garden. I lazy blog. Let peek-tures do the talking. ^^V Obviously we reached there in the night time to picnic. =.='' Cause of some ass. Lols.
And Bibi, yuye and alpha's at my hse now. Ciaos aliens. :D

Peek-tures from Science Centre. Like finally yuye! But only half of it. And i'm still waiting for marina squares one! >:

P/s: Always and forever.

sinyi: ROAR!
lol: ??
YIJING!: SHUT! -.-
lingling: Uh, you are?

Failure.

2009-08-12T20:35:00.002+08:00

I failed miserably as a girlf. I didn't took your feelings into consideration when i went to visit wx today. I'm sorry,i know i suck. )': I caused you to do sth that you shouldn't have done. I went back on my words, i'm a bad girlf. Maybe, we should have stayed that way before second june 2009. I'm a failure in everything.

P/s: Blogger sucks now. Cannot upload pictures and i can't change font colour, size, blahblah. Everything. *Points middle finger to blogger.*

Audrey: I guess so. :/
WillyK: Relinked. (: How familiar is familiar? :B
Audrey: To hell, you god damn imposter. Snores.
hopped from yuyeblog: I hope so. :/

Happy 44th birthday Singapore. ^^

2009-08-09T22:44:00.013+08:00

Hello fuckers. ^^V Uploading 54 pictures is tedious yo. Waiting for that pubor yuye add me msn and send me more peektures taken today. Lols. Limpei's tired now. And my Bibi is drinking my favourite beer now lahh! CARLSBERGGGGGGG. ):

Thursday: Me went school, was late. Snores. Did math, then engine fund, go eat, go web design. I think me, marcus and hilmi and superb. ^^ We managed to chiong out project in less than 3hrs. Weets. (; Then bus home. Hahahas.

Friday: Go school, then attempted to finish the stupid com prog project, but still stuck. ARGHS! >: Finished school at 11 and go whitesands da bao for Bibi. At Bibi hse slacked, slept, ate, watched tv. Wait for yuye and alphaeous finish doing their case. -.- Me and Bibi go E hub eat pasta mania, waited for the two pubors come. Snores, wanted to watch movie, but no slots. Then we four slacked at coffeebean. Then we cabbed back to my hse. Watched channel 8 awhile. And they catched the last bus home.

Saturday: Went to elias at 5plus? Saw dickson, gordon, julia and freda. We went coffeeshop eat while i waited for Bibi, yuye and alpha come. Then cab go e hub. Watched UP. So cute lahh can!! :DD EEEEEEEEEEEEEEK! Hehehes. Then we four walked to 200plus. Bibi and alpha went to do their things. While me and yuye somehow got lost and settled down at somewhere to talk. Then we go 230 find them. Slacked awhile and they sent me to busstop, bused back ahma hse.

Sunday: Woke up at 11plus? Then cabbed home, bathed and prepared. Cabbed go ergu hse. Was supposed to have my subway, but i forget tell her i don't want mayonaise. Ended up, i eat beehoon. -.- Then uncle rameish very act cute, take rubber seeds rub on the floor and put on my arm. I got a burnt on my hand cause it was fucking hot, my skin come out. -.- Then Bibi come fetch me from ergu hse go his hse. Waited for him to bath then we go Science centre meet alpha and yuye. Then walked around. Yuye finally had her dream come true. Hahas. Had dinner at Jurong then mrt to cityhall. We're ah hai, go there see not even 1min de fireworks jiu no more le. Lols. Then go marina square, fucking alot pple, walk until leg sour, got lost. -.- Walked all the way until suntec, i saw some nice wedding pictures lahh can. Hahas. Then mrt to lavender, Bibi's daddy come fetch us. Home sweet home.

P/s: How am i supposed to go on if you're not by my side?

yuye: UP's cute to the max max. Hehes. Science centre dream come true. Hahas.
Joker: Fuck lovell alot alot. Its cute. -.-

Untitled, with lotsa love! (:

2009-08-05T19:31:00.002+08:00

Second round of blogging. :C Because...

...

Your mother, me, felt like it. Hahahahas! Okehs, i'm so fucking lame. Hmm, i wonder where can see until fireworks. I want go see fireworks on national day with Bibi. But i don't want go crowded place to see eh. I want romantic romantic de lehh. So! Where can see until clear view and yet romantic one?

I rmb i wanted to blog abt sth else also, but my fried kway smells very delicious ah. So aku pegir makan first. LOL! ^^V

Miie g0ts dhe urge tuh type twiit iin dhiis bl0g entry w0rss. ;D

2009-08-05T19:01:00.005+08:00

Hiie fagg0ts, miie dunch noe whyiies feel lyk typiing twiits ohxzx. Juz bear wiif iit f0r juz thiis p0st okiies? ^^V

Sh0 miie t0day berii guaiiz worss, miie went sch00l t0day. :D But miie late f0r sch00l. ): G0t math quiiz, i handed iin blank paper. ): Miie dunch noe how tuh dos. ):

Then after dhat iish wrt0ral. Slackiing f0r dhe 1hrs30miins. Hhahax. Played murderer wiif classmates. Kiinda fun worss. Miie was murderer for 3 tymes? Hhahax. Then g0 fiind effcom cher wiif angie. KNS, miie have t0 r0t 30miins t0 waiit f0r the cher. Sn0res. Fiinally get t0 retest my wriitiing 1, then go fiind Biibii. Ate mac, slept abiit, h0mesweeth0me.

Endiing 0ff wiif a c0nclusii0n, iie tiink typiing twiits iish sh0 sucky. -.- Dunch noe whyiies iie used t0 type lyk dhiis. LOL! And and, my front camera quality sucks. ): Oh, i removed my plurk, cause i got bored of it already. ;D Ciaozxzx!

P/s: I can slay my own dragons, be my own night in shining armour.

Yuye: LIAR! You all bully me, cause see me need go home early!!! Hate you.
):
YIJING!: Just fucking admit it, its ugly.

Like blogger is throwing tantrums uh. :C

2009-08-04T20:08:00.001+08:00

Monday: Went to school for one hour. Waited one hour for dickson and vincent come my school. Then weiji and this guy came. Then we cab to queensway (?) without the this guy. :B Then weiji pass thing give his lawyer (?) then we cab go the shopping centre. Weiji spend so fucking long to buy one pair of shoes. Worse than me sia! Hahas. Then me and dickson eat curry chicken rice and vincent eat laksa. Weiji went off. We 3 rot at arcade. Then cab go dickson court, waste of time i swear. Then waited super long for dickson mother come fetch us. Then we go people's park complex! -.- OMG, dickson's mother and her friend buying camera. Super long, we 3 were like going crazy. And finally dickson's mother gave him money to cab go back pasir ris. Phew! Finally man. Met Bibi, alpha, yuye, aloy, jiajia, leeling and co. at 230. Blahblah, and Bibi sent me home. Weeee. :D

Tuesday: Went to school, yeah yeah. My previous post lohh. Anyways! I must be really fucking stupid to wear black and long sleeves to school. More stupid to tag along with classmates to reservoir that side take bus! SNORES. Worse, the fucking bus got aircon like no aircon, swear i was melting already. Then rot whole day at home and i'm feeling so sleepy. Yawns. Think i not enough sleep yo! ): Bibi going songka now, miss him alot.

P/s: Kiss my lips gently, hold me tightly tonight. Because we belong together.

Shanice: Relinked bei. :D

Bored to the max max max! ):

2009-08-04T11:14:00.002+08:00

Hello fuckers, i'm in school blogging now. Everyone's busy doing their projects while i'm stuck. Snores. Somebody save me, arghs! Okay, me feel like killing Bibi or maybe i should just kill myself. :/ Still considering which is a better option. Lols. Don't know why, i just feel like ranting. Life sucks to the fucking max. Zzz. Me really going crazy. Blahs! Fuck school, fuck the projects, fuck the attendance, fuck the timetable, fuck my studies, fuck everything related to school. Oh yeah, fuck the bus which broke down when i was on the way to school. Fuck the stupid traffic, fuck the squeezing in buses. Fuck everything and everyone! ): I hate living my life. It sucks so so so badly. Snores!!!! Bye fuckers, i need to continue doing my project. Zzz.

P/s: I might as well be dead than alive. I'm like a walking zombie. ARGHS!

I'm like lazy to blog ah. :/

2009-08-02T20:16:00.005+08:00

Hello aliens, miss me eh. Hohos. I'm lazy to blog sia. Don't know why. :/ But still, i'll blog. Hahas.

02.08.09- Me and Bibi''s second monthsary. ):

01.08.09- Meet leeling on bus 81 and go central meet dickson, alpha, yuye, aloy, jiajia, gordon, kenneth. Then blahblah, Bibi finally came down. We all bus go katong, except leeling. :/ Sang at teoheng for 5hrs. One by one all disappear then end up left dickson, alpha, yuye, Bibi and me. Then cabbed back ahma hse.

31.07.09- Went school. Snores. Then go Bibi hse, waited outside his hse for 40mins, until he finally woke up open door for me. Zzz. Watched harry potter and the half blood prince. I didn't quite catch it. -.- Then bus go elias meet dickson, alpha, yuye, aloy, evan and vincent. They dota while me and yuye rotted. Then munkie came. Then we bus-ed to my hse. Ton-ed. Slept for 5hrs only. Snores.

30.07.09- Meet leeling and her friend at kovan bus stop before going school. Then go school, then skipped web design go find Bibi. Then home sweet home.

29.07.09- Didn't go school, go dickson hse with leeling. Then yuye, Bibi and aloy came. Then slack? Then me and leeling went home.

28,27,26,25.07.09- I was unwell with high fever. Stayed at mummy hse. Bibi came to meet on sat and sun night. :/

24.07.09- Went school. Then bus-ed to dickson hse downstairs. Waited for dickson, alpha, leeling and Bibi to come down. Then lunch at dickson's hse. And together with his mum, we went to white sands. Send dickson off to take bus go Tekong. :/ And vincent came panting when dickson's bus just went off. Dramatic. :/ Then slacked, vincent went back school, the rest go Bibi hse slack watch tv. Then go 230. Many pple there. Then awhile l8r, we saw dickson. Lols. His army postponed. Then he like pranked us like fuck. -.- Then go central eat, then 230, then dickson's hse downnstairs. Then home sweet home.

I only can rmb up till here. Hahas. So ciaos aliens. I want go bath already. ):
Oh yeah, i'm loving my white n97. Finally i can play songs with some reasonable volume and cam whore using a front cam. Woots.

P/s: Why am i feeling so shag? ):

Audrey: I hope so. ): I miss you too.
karen: Miss me how much? :D

You are love to me.

2009-07-27T23:10:00.002+08:00

I know you're so different from the other boys out there. You don't bring me out to town. You don't bring me on exravagant shopping trips. Neither do you bring me to posh restaurants for dinner. But i know you love me like none of the others had. You do what you promised. You bring me to places nobody had brought me to. You went through a difficult time with me. You bring happiness into my life. At times, you make me so mad. But i still love you so much. I love how you get jealous when i tell you how cute and hot some guys are. I love how you look into my eyes deeply and tell me you love me. I love how you worry and care for me. You're always being a pig, like can sleep forever one. ^^ Alvin chng wee kiat, i want you to know that i love you so so much. Although you can't be sweet like how i want you to be, i know your heart only have me. I want to be your last, because i want us to be like what you want. I don't ever want to leave you, because leaving you means leaving happiness. And Bibi, time really does fly when i'm with you. In a blink of eye, we're tgt for 2 mths. 2 mths isn't very long, but we'll walk far hand in hand. I love you hubby, alot alot alot. (:

P/s: You're a rare gem, i'll cherish you with my heart. (:

sinyi: I don't know. ):
karen: :DDD
Chanhuei: Relinked, yeah. Hen jiu mei jian le. :D
YIJING!: Yes, you! Irritating. Lols.

And so i know how much i stand in your heart.

2009-07-20T22:30:00.003+08:00

No mood to blog, snores. Just want to say something which i felt damn hillarious just now. Bibi was carrying sth and my msg came, in order to reply me fast, he didn't noticed the lamp post in front of him. And yes, his head banged onto it. My Bibi fucking cute right? Lols. Then few minutes l8r, alpha called me saying, 'Eh Yiling!! Alvin jing yi yuan eh! Yin wei ta zhuang dao lamp post! Hahahhahahhahahah!' Lame right, and he kept laughing and laughing like an idiot. I already knew it before he called me. He still say what he wanted to tell him got lamp post, but not enough time to say, Bibi jiu bang onto lamp post le. Lols. He still say what the lamp post shake shake shake. =.= Lame.
And my maid and sister's irritating me. Snores. Keep asking me if tmr i going school not, don't keep pon school, blahblah. Snores. Reminds me of dickson who's going in army this friday. :/ He also ask me don't keep pon school. Lols. Adios aliens. ): I'm feeling sad. I'll go cry to my pillow in 10mins time. BAI!

P/s: Because to you, brothers always comes first right?

Fly without wings.

2009-07-19T15:29:00.004+08:00

Friday: Didn't go school, didn't go take mc. :/ Went to meet Bi and we went LoyangPoint, he had his hair cut. No much difference though. Lols. Then had mac breakfast. And Bi bought kinder bueno. Audrey asks if buy condom and lubricant got offer one not. Hahas! Then went back Bi's hse, watched mio tv. Got ShuangTianZiZun lehh! Omg. Daddy don't want subscribe for me. ):

Then we went to elias meet aloy, jiajia, and jiajia's brother. Lols. Ate, lan-ed and dickson and his brother came. L4d-ed. I died at the last second! >: Then leeling came. Jiajia, jiajia's brother and aloy went off. We three went to dickson hse downstair de fitness corner slack. Then i went off and vomitted. :/ Bi came to find me, and we cabbed home.

Saturday: Met Leeling and dickson at central, ate. And Bi came down. Then jiajia came. Slacked at central, then walked around. Intended to go bedok, but don't know why never go le. Then went to dickson hse downstair slack. Then walked to ehub, jiajia went off. We went to don't know where. Had steamboat, sucks. Then slack slack slack, i saw janna, talked abit and Bi sent me off to bus stop. Home sweet home.

P/s: Because you'll catch me when i fall.

Joy: Hahas, okokays.
sinyi: Got miss! ):
joy: Wah, you really very lame. -.- Just put your own name will die mehh? Sot.
Leewee: Relinked. (:

How long can we walk tgt?

2009-07-16T20:49:00.003+08:00

Wednesday: Didn't go school. :/ Went to central alone, went to take mc from polyclinic alone. Kept bombing Bi and dickson up. Finally they woke. Met them at dickson hse under block. Went to central eat, then buy g go Bi's hse. Then aloy and jiajia came. Something happened. :/ Then we went central, alpha came. Ate dinner there, home sweet home.

Thursday: Didn't go school again. Met leeling on bus 81. Went to central, had lunch there. Go polyclinic want take mc, but the doctor fucking guailan, don't want give me mc! Fuck it. Snores. Took medicine, fucking cheap i tell you. Total, $6.70 only. Wooooo~ Hahas. Then help Bi buy food and buy g then go Bi's hse. Then dickson, alpha, vincent and this girl came over. Alpha and the girl stayed at the living room, we inside room. Then watched this show, 'Conman in Tokyo'. Then Bi's daddy came back. We went off. They ate at central while me and Bi drank coke. Then Bi send me go bus stop and home sweet home.

P/s: I don't know the distance from now till forever.

I miss, KAREN NG, SINYI DEAR AND AUDREY LI! (:

Audrey: I think your contact lens degree too low for your eyes le. Time for
an eye checkup bitch.
Joy: Lol, i like don't know you? -.-
sinyi: Now have le. :D

2009-07-15T21:44:00.001+08:00

And you know i love you so.

2009-07-14T15:32:00.014+08:00

Friday went to dickson's court. Bi and leeling were sleeping like oink oink. So i met aloy, jiajia, sebas and sebas girlf at court there. Wait for dickson come. His court was postponed to monday. So we all went to eat, dickson mummy treat. Thanks auntie! Then she drove us back to dickson hse. We all slacked there and watched tv. Jeron is fucking the cute manxzxz! Hohohos. Then we all bluff the whole world that dickson went in, monday then can bail out. :/ Then we four went to find Bi at his hse. (: Then huhu-ed. Then they want go swimming, so me aloy and jiajia cab go back my hse take my bikini. Then bus-ed back elias. Vincent and gordon was there too. Then eat le jiu go behind de condo swim. Vincent and dickson wear boxer and underwear down the pool. Damn sexy i swear! Hahahas. Gordon never swim. :/ Then i saw almost all of them naked. I don't tell you why. :D Lols. Then bathed. Me and Bi went to Loyang Point for dinner with his family. :DD After dinner go dickson hse downstair slack. Cooling. Me and Bi used public toilet. -.-' Then slack somemore, evan came. Then me and Bi cabbed home. Bi slept over. (:

Saturday morning, Bi went home to bath and change. I went to prepare also. Met leeling on bus and we went elias tgt. Met up with the rest. Guys dota-ed while girls audi-ed. Hohos. Then we went to watch movie. There was, Alpha, Leeling, Aloy, Jiajia, Dickson, Bi and me. We bought sushi from NTUC go inside cinema eat. :/ The Haunting In Conneticut, bao jia ah i tell you. Hahas. Then i screamed alot of times. (: After movie, actually want to eat steamboat one, but too late le. So we ended up near gordon's hse waiting for gordon and evan came too. I cried in BiBi's arms. ^^ Then we all slack here slack there. Go 7-11 buy cookies eat. Not too bad. :/ Hahas. Then we all cabbed to my hse. Slacked there. And something bad happened. I don't wish to elaborate. :/ Then everything become normal le. Morning we all ate 50plus worth of mac breakfast. Hohos. Then all toh in the living room. Hohos. Woke up ard 1? Ate lunch and they slacked till 4plus? Then went off le. I had to look after my little brother, i built him a lego hse. =.= Then evening i go sleep le. Yawns.

Monday morning went to meet Bi then go central eat. Then buy g go dickson hse. Slacked there. Got sth damn fucking funny, i shy say out. I only can say, dickson cannot go toilet one! Hahas. Then me and dickson played until like mad? Lols. Bi was like trying to get some rest. :/ Then dickson go prepare and we cabbed to court. Met leeling, aloy, jiajia and vincent there. Waited very long only to know that its postponed again, 3rdAugust. Snores. Then cabbed go bedok eat. Then cabbed go jiajia hse, went to fetch alpha too. Huhu-ed. Then i had to go off. Went to parkway meet mummy. Talked talked talked. Then home sweet home. And Bi told me scary thing, make me fuck scared. And i made leeling, alpha, dickson and Bi come over my hse. So i'm like officially lack of sleep. Yawns!

Today go school. Feel like thousand years never go school de feelings. -.- Then i kept dozing off inside the bus. Was fucking tired. And comprog is a fucking waste of time man. Zzz. So adios aliens, i'm off to sleep already. Yawns yawns yawns.

P/s: Bi haven't wake up. I wonder if anything happened. ):

Junle: Is that a compliment or a sarcasm? :/ Since school reopen until now, i bet you only managed to see me less than 10times in lec hall! ^^
sinyi: I try!

I'm so going sot already. (:

2009-07-09T21:04:00.002+08:00

Suppose to be on my way to school today, but something cropped up ao i alighted bus at bedok. And alpha cabbed to come fetch me and we went elias. Met Weiji (?) then slack abit. I kena splash water by alpha, he sucks super big time i swear. :D Then aloy and jiajia arrived. We 3 went to coffeeshop eat. Got 4pics, but i like lazy to upload ah. Maybe tmr bahh. (: Then went to lan play audition. Vincent came. Bi and Leeling came. Then aloy, jiajia, leeling, alpha, Bi and me went to central there de polyclinic. Only managed to get 1 day mc, i think the doctor is deaf! I told him 2 days mc!! -.- Oh wells, then we all went to Bi's hse huhu. Played this game, and i treated real things as illusion. I think i going bonkers. And Bi almost went sot with me, cause he say i asked him 'When dickson come one sia!?' 11 times. Hahas. Can you believe it? 11 times man, i also can't believe it. Hohohos. Then from reach Bi all the way to leave Bi's hse i is blank space in the time line again ah. Hahas. Bi say never to think about it, if not i will go crazy. Hahas. So i bus-ed home while the rest don't know go where. :/ Tuition-ed and here i am blogging. Bi's coming over l8r i think? If he can bear to part with his brothers. Hahahs.

P/s: You'll never imagine what i'll become without you by my side.

Tmr dickson court. Although i not very close with him, but i know he's a good person lahh. Rmb that time he treat me play boardgame and let me tok him of his green apple soda, mushroom soup and garlic bread. Still treat me another fishbowl cup of green apple soda. Still rmb i illusion until he very sot with me, want beat me up. But when asked him, he say never. Okay, no link. We'll all stay by you no matter what. I will pray for you that nothing will happen alright. If touch wood, anything happen, i'll takecare of BiBi for you. (:

Love is just a word.

2009-07-08T20:06:00.002+08:00

No pictures today. :/ Late for school. Snores. Then after school go elias meet dickson, evan and Bi. Then go coffeeshop eat. Leeling came. Then we go kenneth hse. Aloy and jiajia was there too. Eh, huhu-ed. Then empty space in my timeline ah. Cause i seriously cannot rmb what happened. And i ended up at lan. -.- Whatever, aloy, leeling, dickson and Bi went to K box. While jiajia went home and dropped me off at bus stop. Bus-ed home. Nothing much, boring life. Yawns. Moody now, so ciaos aliens.

P/s: I g then i attitude?! You sure not.

joy: Who the hell are you? You know shit about alvin and me. So just shut the trap up okay. How you know alvin don't truely love me, how you know alvin not serious? Younever heard before love is blind mehh? How can you choose to love a person or not? When the feelings come, its there. As if its my fault like that. Big big snores!
Audrey: Love you. Mwacks.

Drifted.

2009-07-07T20:25:00.003+08:00

Ah wells, just fuck it all man. Yeah yeah, i'm not the good girlf here. You tired and sleep whole day, i not happy that you're not awake to pei me msg. You went out on sunday night and lied to me that you're home, I didn't get mad at you, my fault. I trust you won't do wrong things behind my back, my fault. Every fucking thing is my fault. I love you, my fault. You couldn't see it, my fault as well. Might as well just fuck this whole thing since i can't see or feel your love. I want quit pg cause of you, my fault. I keep pon school cause want see you, my fault. I lie to daddy saying i'm in school cause i wanna pei you, my fault. All the shit that i've done for you is my fault. This is cock, this is bullshit lahh! I tell you, i start to feel fucking insecure with your love already lahh! My fault that i wasn't good enough. Its my bad, its my wrong. My fault that i wasn't perfect in your eyes. Its my bad, its my wrong. My fault that i couldn't get to know you earlier. Its my bad, its my wrong.
Its all my fault, because you forgot what love is all about. Maybe i should stop changing and revert to my old self..

Can you see how deeply my love is?

2009-07-07T19:25:00.005+08:00

I decided to give myself a self-declared holiday today again. (: Cause i like left 30mins to travel from kovan to tamp, so not going to make it at all lahh. So i called leeling and just nice she answered my call. Then i sat at the bus stop for another 30mins, chatting with audrey on the phone. And she finally arrived. (: Breakfast at kovan and we bused to hougang polyclinic. Waited for 1hr30mins just to get a bloody mc. Now i know why i never went to polyclinics for mc. :/ The doctor was like cousellor lahh, say so many no link things! -.- Then lunch at pasta mania. And we bus-ed back home.

She waited for me to finish tuition and we went to kovan, popular for my stationary. Then super bowl for arcade. (: I kena tok by maximum tune! D: Oh wells, then we went back to my hse and i help her cut her fringe! Now its much better, i have the makings of a great hairstylist yo! Hahas, then she went home with my spare monitor screen and here i am blogging.

We talked alot of cock today. And i leeling kena tok by gordon they all! Like funny only lahh sia! They bluff her say gordon is a tatoo artist. This is cock, this is bullshit lahh! Hahahas. And i'm the last one to know everything about elias lahh can! Bloody hell, Bi never tell me a shit! ): Ciaos aliens, i'm off to complain to my pillow. :B

Tell me why am i suddenly feeling so insecure with your love? I hate this feeling. Am i just being paranoid or what?

Pictures of alpha taken by dickson with leeling's hp. Hahahah! :DD

P/s: I never p until g today! :/

When words are barely enough,

2009-07-06T20:48:00.002+08:00

Hello all aliens! (: I went to to school today with the mood, 'I don't want go school'. So i only attended 1hr of EffCom, and it was self declared school dismissal for me. (: I envy those people with Youth Day Holiday, whereby they do not have to attend school. ): And i seriously do not have any idea why i'm typing like my english is very good. Probably because EffCom was all about writing proper sentences. :/ Ah well, i think i should blog like normal. :DD

So i went to elias and waited for jiajia, aloy and Bi for fucking 30minutes! I sat outside lan like some ah hai you know!! =.= Retarded me. Lols. Then jiajia and aloy arrived first, the Bi came. Somehow had a quarrel with Bi, but its all fine now. Huhu, its all your bloody fault! ): Went to coffeeshop eat. Then alpha came too. Actually they want go pulau ubin fishing one. Then me, jiajia and aloy went to kenneth hse huhu. Then alpha and dickson and Bi came. Alpha is like some idiot when he seh. Lols! Then all huhu and huhu and huhu. Then cab to E-hub. They always never get their asses down to pulau ubin one. Since don't know how long ago want go until now haven't go. Hahas. Had dinner at level 3 there. We eat until 100plusplus but the food simply NO STANDARD! Or isit my standard too high? :/ Then boardgame-ed. And Bi sent me off to busstop. Home sweet home. (:

P/s: I still don't understand why.

sinyi: I know! Don't remind me that i'm fat nowwwwww!!!! ):

I really love Alvin.C alot!

2009-07-05T17:41:00.005+08:00

I don't know how to blog lehh. -.- Like rusty already. So long never blog about my life le. Hahas. Before i blog based on the pictures, i think i just in point form go through what i rmb lahh. Lols.
- K box once upon a time with Bi and co until midnight and Bi stayed over my hse.
- E-hub once upon a time with Bi and co for board games. -.-
- Boat quay once upon a time with Bi and co for dickson's angkong.
- Elias with Bi and co. Jiajia, leeling, amicell and peixian were in uni. Make me reminisce.
- Movie watched, Ghosts of girlfriends past.
- Met karen at TM for some cock talking session (?) Missed her so much. :D
- Met eugene for dinner at TM and became his listening ear again. CheerUp man. :D
I think the above is not in order. ^^V

2nd July is me and Bi's One Monthsary. He fetched me from school and go kovan. So the horror started, because i wanted to bleach my hair! And bleach too much, my hair dropped/ broked/ damaged. But the colour's still nice. But still, i don't think i want to go through the horror again!
3rd July went to the zoo with Bi!! :DD Super happy lahh. Hahas. Some may think like childish but you guys never knew why i could be so happy. And i'll not be telling you why. Neh-neh! Lols. Okays, L.Yiling is being childish now. -.- So met Bi at elias and 88-ed to AMK, ate lunch there and 138-ed to the ZOO! Hahahs.

Cute right the tiger cat or sth, i forget the name lahh! -,-

The baboon has a colourful ass. LOLS. And the butterfly is pretty, but i scared. -.-

Bi said, 'Giraffe very funny lahh, neck so long. Not tired mehh?' =.=

I took this picture at the zoo there, nice eh! I have the makings of a photographer! :B

After a whole day in the the zoo, we were both tired and sticky. Lols. We 138-ed to AMK, 88-ed to elias and 358-ed to Bi's hse. Bath and prepared. Then we went to dickson hse downstair. While i was waiting for audrey and Dor to come, and Bi was waiting for alpha's call, we huhu-ed. Finally dor and audrey came and finally alpha called, after 123456789 dinosaur years. Lols. Kissed Bi goodbye and off to eugene's chalet we girls go. Cabbed there and bought mac eat. Huhu-ed at chalet and talked with eugene and cam whored. So 1130 came and i cabbed home, dropping dor at hougang st 51.

4th July, woke up with a nightmare and audrey's text. Lol. Screw that nightmare. So i used the com until it was time to prepare to go meet mummy. Bus-ed to mummy's hse and angie came to pick us up. Went to meet Z and Z's colleague at somewhere near boat quay. Had dinner there and i drank beer. Blahblah, then go boat quay de pub i never drink anymore cause feel very bloated from the dinner. :/ Then it was home sweet home after much chit chatting.

I know mummy's sexy. :D Hahahas. And that's weihong, my little brother. Cute like me. :D Lols, self high. -.- And i don't know why the fuck blogger cannot upload pictures! :/
So ciaos aliens. :D And TAG ME!
P/s: What if i tell you, 'Something went wrong in our love'?

Birthday wishes.

2009-07-04T16:35:00.002+08:00

Happy 16th birthday to Dexter Erzi! :D

Happy 17th birthday to Lewis! :D

Both their birthdays are today. So i better wish them here, before i forget. And many are coming up soon. Geez, What's with babies getting born in the month of july! Hahas. Okays, i better go prepare already. Meeting mummy and her friends to celebrate her birthday in advance. (I told you everybody's birthdays are cramped tgt!) Will blog tmr, cause i think i'll be staying home tmr since its SUNDAY! Lols. So, ciaoxzxz aliens. (:

P/s: Does anyone know where did Bi go to? Is he still sleeping or what?! ):

anon: To me, good game means die already and bomb means anyhow spin stories. Sth like this. (:
Tzw: Hello cousin! Wo hao xiang nixzxz! :D
Jinn: What's with the 'wah!' ?! Hahas, i think its nice. :DD

What if i say,

2009-06-30T21:22:00.004+08:00

Fucking happy birthday to Alphaous! (:
You're like old already man, don't play around already. Tsk, you've got so many 'future girlfriends' lahh can. Geez, lucky my Bi not like you. And stop snatching him from me okays! Faggot. Have fun on your dumb birthday, and oh yeah. You can now help me buy cigg already! :D Hahas. I bet he'll be so touched if he ever get to see this. :/
Today, alphaous is the birthday boy. Well, initially there wasn't any big fuck about it. But now, its a fucking big fuck! Because i wished him happy birthday, he still said yea you know! Hohos. I know i'm such a big fuck. -.- Lame (he's favourite word. i think also gordon's one lahh!)
Anyway, back to the main purpose why i'm blogging here. And to alphaous, most of this post is about you okays. Don't cry just yet, read on and don't slap me after reading the whole of it. Hahahas!
So early in the morning, maybe about 11plus? I called him to kpkb, saying 'eh, we go take taxi then you sing lehh. the window will crack. hahhahha!' And i huhu-ed and i told him that! Biggest mistake everrrrr! Then he threaten me that he'll tell Bi that i huhu-ed in class. And fuck him man! I was like shouting here and there. Teacher was teaching also. But who cares. Laughs.
Okay, so he threaten me i of cause must threaten back right! Then i tell him, if me and Bi quarrel over this, i make sure i cry until sipei jialat go find him and make him fucking regret. Then then after crying, i will make sure he wearsa skirt walking around elias mall! So he was like, 'orh now you want threaten me ah? okay lohh, i go call alvin now.' And like, 'you call lahh! why haven't call? don't dare call right? scared you wear skirt walk around elias right! call lahh, i scared you ah!'
I know its like childish, but he's still a kid. So must entertain him right. And i keep 'limpei' him, he keep 'don't keep limpei with limpei lahh hors' me. -.- Lols. Fucking bo liao. Kp him from lesson until lesson end until reaching Bi's hse. Dots. Biggest joke of the day man!
And when i asked him for leeling's number, he gave me 9 different numbers and each change one number only. 8 numbers not in use and 1 wrong number. Fuck him yo! He think funfair lahh. Bloody hell, make me almost want to faint lahh. Idiotxzx!
And alphaous, if you ever do get to read this, don't fucking slap me. If not i'll fucking make sure you wear a skirt around EM! :D Ciaos humans.

P/s: AlvinChngWeeKiat, what if i say ' I do'?

2009-06-29T20:45:00.005+08:00

Hello fellow aliens! I'm so lazy to update my current B-O-R-I-N-G life. So just bear with me for a few more days okay! I promise to report every single thing that happened soon! So, Bi thinks that he's reporting hq tmr, he's not sure. :/ I'm soooooooo worried. Snores! Pray hard hard with me that nth will happen alright! So sth so funny happened just a few minutes ago lahh. Lols. I opened my ribena, and pressed it. Boo! Ribena mixed with G squirted out onto my face and hand. Like wtf right! I know, no wonder how day the 'ribena' tasted weird. Cause never make the water come out cleanly. Hehs. Some faggots confirm don't know what the heck i'm saying. But fear not, those who understands it! I won't elaborate. ;DD Purpose of blogging today is to talk cock. -.- Lols. End of cocking session. Ciaos humans.

P/s: Dear god, please let Bi be safe and stay by me.

aloy/squirrel: Hi dumbass. (:
passerby: Lols. Thats just a joke, get it? I'm straight, not les. :D
Leeling: Linkedddddd! :D
Dorothy: Hahas, you confirm want kena whack by me le. :D
sinyi: Dear, iloveyou. But love alvin more. :D

What will i become,

2009-06-23T22:56:00.003+08:00

I don't want you go in, so i'll be parying hard.
Its not confirmed yet, but i feel fucking shag and moodless since i knew about it.
If say touch wood you go in, i'll be outside waiting for you. (:
If say touch wood you got probation, change me send you home okays? (:
If say nothing happens, i'll be the happiest one. :DDD
I don't know what procedure have to be done to know the outcome. I'm a noob, yes, your idiot girlf.
Need go court one ah? I never attend court session before. :/
Okay Yiling, you're side tracking already. Shut your nonsense and stop letting your imagination run wild.
This is so so random. Tsk.
But AlvinChngWeeKiat, i love you very very much.

Somehow when i first saw you, i was attracted to you. But the thought of us being tgt never struck me. Second time i saw you, i belonged to you. Though things went fast and haywire, i knew at that point you still weren't interested in me. But i know that i had feelings for you, so i bet on it. And it turned out, we should be tgt. And then things went very very wrong, we almost couldn't make it. But i didn't give up. And we came through it, so its heaven's sign that we're meant to be tgt. You're a gift from above, to let me learn to love and cherish. I know that the road ahead will be long and tough, but we'll endure all hardships and last. How long had it been since i last called someone my hubby? How long had it been since someone told me that he wants to marry me? How long had it been since i've practiced the word 'faithful'? Now my everything is you. So tell me love, what's going to happen if one day you suddenly tell me you don't love me anymore? My world would come crashing down on me and suffocate me to death. ILY, 2ndJune. I know you're unlike all the other guys, you're different. 9 more days.

Btw, my head hurts fucking alot now.
Whats with my life, it just sucks to the core lahh. Want go out, also must like dog like that. Zzz. Fuck my life upside down, i have school tmr. Un-awesomely big bummer. I think i'm used to staying home, going out makes me somehow sian? But with Bi, its another story already. ;)
L.Yiling really needs to chill now, she's like going to burst soon. Tsk. How how how? Tell me how to stop thinking rubbish? Zzz.

This blog post like never ending one, lols. I don't know why but i need to feel that i'm loved and cared for. If not, i'll be like thinking anyhow one. Omg omg omg, i have no fucking idea what i'm saying, what i'm thinking. Yiling is going to die soon, thats why she's behaving like a crazy woman now. Don't mind her. Goodnight all aliens. She needs to wake up early for school tmr, don't disturb her ah.

One last thing, although i gave permission for Bi to pg somehow, it makes me feel sad that he even want to ask me. I know he's stressed, just like me. But i still feel pain when he doesn't feel like keeping his promises. So Bi, will you one day don't feel like keeping your promise of loving only me? Geez, I suddenly want g to p also. :/

P/s:
-What's the use of loving wholeheartedly when you know that love won't stay forever?
-What's the point of loving so deeply when you know that love will die one day?
-Why put in so much effort into love when it'll all go to waste?
-Why love when it'll all end up in heartache?

aloy/squirrel: Hi aloysif, i met you okays! Lols.
Dorothy: Hahas, photocopy means paikia paikia kind or? And of cause i'm so
cute lahh! Hahas.
Leeling: Hello! Yes, i remember you lahh! :D
passerby: Obviously i'm straight since i have a BOYFRIEND right?
Hahas.

2009-06-19T16:06:00.000+08:00

Sad or angry, tell you got use mehh. This ain't the first time already.

Featuring... BABY YILING!

2009-06-18T21:13:00.008+08:00

I dug out these pictures from mummy's place some time ago. I find miie ishh sho fuckingxz cutexzxz! So i decided to post them here. :D
Auudrey says daddy looks like a YP. :/
I loooove this picture to the max! I don't know why. Lols.
I must be reaaaaal happy to smile like this. Hahas.
Don't get horny guys and lesbians! Laughs. -.-
Grandma and me. I think i look ang mo-ish! =.=' I look so sweet here. Hohohos!
Mummy says this was taken i was shitting! -,-

Cutexzxz to dhe maxxxx!

With SanYi, BerYi, SanYiZhang. Don't you think i look like angmo? Lolsss!

Dancing? Probably. Hahahas.

Like Singapore snowing luhh! -.-

At some lantern festival thingy. (?)

Tsk! How can daddy smoke infront of a small girl?!

Mummy! I'm happy! See the smileeeeee! I probably wanted to kiss daddy i think? Hahas.

Mummy. People in the past are so not fashion friendly. -.-

I think i'm so cut out to be a model. :B

Daddy daddy! :D He smokes red in the past. :/

I'm so innocent looking when i'm young. O:

Some water theme park which i've got no clue as to where it is. Lols.

Ergu! Ahma say i look like some angmo kid here. Lols.

Me with younger sister. :D

I look like i can kill someone. -.-

We don't look happy. ):

Probably one of the very few family pictures i have.

Ending off with me during kindergarden. ;D

Somehow, i wish daddy and mummy were together.

Somehow, i wish my family was perfect.

Somehow, i know it won't come true.

I miss grandpa..

So Bi and co. didn't went pulau ubin fishing today. I rotted at home and had tuition. Tuition was somehow good? Lols. Bi's asleep now. They're going pulau ubin fishing tmr. Maybe only. Should i ask daddy for permission to go fag and be mosquitoes food tmr? :/

P/s: I'm everything that you wish you are.

iie lurbbz chuxzxz

2009-06-17T23:49:00.000+08:00

Met audrey darling at kovan mac for lunch and some cock talking. Hahas. Then me and sister bus-ed to tamp at around 3plus. Audrey went off to Jurong. Oh yeah, i almost felled while walking down the stairs. -.- Too bad i didn't fall, haters. ^^'V

And and! I managed to buy ciggarettes from cold storage. Woohoo! :D Lols. Okay, so me and sister watched Monsters vs Aliens 3D. Soooooo cute to the max! :D Especially the 'Oh-Em-Gee' part! *SCREAMS!!!* Lolxzxxz. While i was watching movie, Bi was at east coast with evan interviewing (?).

Then Bi came to meet me after my movie and evan went off. Smoked and bought movie tickets for Drag Me To Hell. Then ate at foodcourt. I got a fucking big serving of meat lahh canxzxz! -.- Hahas. Miie dunch noe whyiies miie keep typiing iin twiitxzx form! O:! LaughMyAssOffffffffff.

Half the movie, i had my hands covering my eyes. Sooooo... Lols. Hahahas! -.- Then after movie went to smoke and Bi sent me home. Right to my living room. :DD And he stayed with me till 12. We watched tv and just nua-ed there. Lols. Bi so cute to max when he saw daddy. Hahas. ;D Okeh! Bi is being so fucking sweet over the sms-es lahh! Happy face to the max! :DDDD

P/s: I can't go pulau ubin fishing with Bi and co. tmr! Sad face to the max! ): Screw ALOYSIF, goner 4!

peixian: Hahas, hello hello. :D
Audrey: Oh-Em-Gee! I can faiintxzxz!
passerby: What do you think? ;D

Intertwined hearts.

2009-06-16T23:06:00.014+08:00

Please be prepared to see lots of my face, Audrey's face and Bi's face. Also my baby brother's face. :D

But before that, i wanna type out my BORING life. (:
So continue-ing from last thursday. Bi left at 6plus (?), i was soooo fucking paranoid lahh can. -.- Geez. Okeh! So daddy came home and we talked. I told him i had been sneaking out to elias meet Bi. Lols. He wasn't mad at me, so yay! (: But still, i cannot go out! =.= I also promised daddy that i won't sneak out anymore. Lols. I'm daddy's little girl. :D Aiyah, then boring fucked up life all the way lahh. Snores. Sat night go meet mummy for dinner, then mac with cliques for slacking and saboteur (?) Until 2am and ahma hse. Sunday went to ergu hse for lunch. I rotted there until 7plus. Boohoos! ): Monday, Bi came to look for me at kovan. Weets! And we had lunch then he accompanied me all the while i was doing my hair extensions and hair dying. I bet it must be a BORING 4 hours there. Hahas, but i'm so touched lahh can! Cause its like go where find a boyf that's willing to accompany you for 4 hours while you're doing your hair. Hees, lucky me man! :D Then we went for dinner and cold storage. And Bi stayed at my hse until 9plus. Then he went to meet dickson and co. (?) Tuesday, apparently stay home again lahhhhh. Thats all about my BORING life. :D

Things that i want to add on:

- I know thats a shitload amount of pictures two girls can take while sitting outside mac.

- Bi always have the same face when taking pictures with me. ):

- I know Weihong's fucking cute, especially when the picture's taken with me. :DD

- I think i look so hideous without makeup, and its been fucking long since i've dressed up!

- And and and, I LOVE MY HAIR NOW! Except that the golden part was supposed to be more silvery instead. :/

- Obviously, me being tgt with audrey is a hoax. I couldn't take it anymore so i had to expose it to all. Because i wasn't able to blog about how sweet Bi is lahh. (:

- Daddy's hogging my ciggarettes now! Because he forget to buy his! ):

- Tmr finally i can go out, but with sister. -.- Hopefully Bi turns up for the second part. (:

- Lastly, MIIE LURBBZ CHUXZXZ, ALVIN CHNG WEE KIAT.

P/s: I miss KarenNg and AudreyLi.

yingchuan: HAHA! You also lame tgt with us! -.-
Audrey: Fuck you bitch. xoxo!

Is this love?

2009-06-15T00:11:00.002+08:00

Attached to AudreyLYR since 14.June.2009.

Baby, i promise to love you with all of my heart.

After 2 years of knowing each other, we're finally together.

This must be love, true love i guess.

Nobody will break us apart and i won't allow it to happen.

I won't care about what others think, all i care about is what you think.

We'll last and prove them wrong love.

ILY baby. Mwacks. (:

Dor: Sorry, but i now only love audrey.
ADP: Thanks man! :D
aloy/squirrel: Fuck you goner! Knn, not my full name please! ):

And soon,

2009-06-11T10:54:00.005+08:00

ME IS STUCK AT HOME FOR 2 FUCKING WEEEEEEKS! THERE GOES MY HOLIDAYS! ALL BECAUSE DADDY WAS PARANOID THAT I MIGHT FALL SICK AGAIN! Shit, i'm so going to be bored to death! But nvm, i've figured a way out. ;D I'm going to sneak out to elias after midnight to meet bi everynight. (Provided that i won't be tired. Hohos.) Genius am i! :B

Monday i stayed home i guess. Slept fucking early if i'm not wrong? Lols. Boring, skip to tuesday!

Tuesday i also stayed home lahh. Zzz. No wait, i think i brought sister to the doctor's. And shopped for tidbits and had dinner at heartland mall. Lols. Beats staying home all day! Then midnight, muahahahahas! I sneaked out to elias! :DD But but, i cabbed there cause daddy slept too late, make me can't take the last bus. O:! Nua-ed at elias. Eh eh eh, i think bi, alpha, dickson, evan and 2 girls were there. I never pg. Goodgirl manxzxzx! I only played cards. Woooooots. Then like bored only. -.- Lols. Then i bused home alone in the morning. Felt weird without bi sending me home eh. ):

Wednesday is sleep lahh. Thought can have a long sleep! But, my daddy woke me up at 1230 to eat medicine. Screwxzxzx! Make me cannot sleep after that. Snores. Bi woke up at 3plus then we chat on phone and sms. O: Then bi went swimming. ): ): ): Then i nua home, then dagu came. And we went for dinner tgt with sister to the nearby cafe. Blahblah. I FUCKING SAW A SHOOTING STAR! :SS I almost forgot to make a wish, cause i was screaming like a crazy woman to my sister. Hahas. Then it was nua home, then midnight sneak out to elias again. Cab again. ): Nua-ed elias. Somehow, i 1 V 1 audition with goner3. I won him like so many rounds. HE BUA CAO ONE! He made my monitor blackout you knowwwww! Then then slammed my monitor down! WTF! Hahas. Then me goner3 and another guy played audi. And i won and lost? Hahahas. Goner3 bua cao again lahh can! Snores. Then slacked with bi, dickson, evan and the 2 girls. Then bus-ed home tgt with bi. (: I haven't sleep yet. Yawns! Daddy, faster leave hse lahh. ): Bi's having a great life! He get to sleep and i have to kua zui. But now he's hiding in my balcony! Hahahas.

I hope daddy sleeps early tonight, so that i can sneak out and manage to catch the last bus. (: I don't want cab go elias again. Everyday 11dollars, i can buy cigg you know! Oh yeah, about ciggs, i've been smoking alot these few days. ): I left less than half packet in few hours time. Geeeez! I better control manxzxz. Last thing, i'm downloading audition! Because i don't want to bore myself to death staying at home in the day! Lols. :D Okay, one last thing, DADDY FINALLY LEFT FOR WORK! Yay, i can sleep already. But i smoke first. Ciaos darlings! ;D Will update sooon. O:

P/s: Sorry for the jiao looking pictures. ): I didn't have makeup on. LOL! And i almost forgot, i was destroying keyboards at elias man! Look at the keyboard picture, the first line. (: Weeee.

Dor: But i love him alot. ):

Tomorrow,

2009-06-07T20:44:00.005+08:00

2nd.June: I went to elias in the mid afternoon (?) to meet bi and co. Nua-ed there until 8plus 9plus then cabb-ed down to songka at bedok. Stayed there until 11plus then cabbed home.

3rd and 4th.June: Stayed home and rot. Wait, i think 4th.June i sneaked out at night to go elias find bi and co. (?), then bi sent me home in the wee wee hours. Snored when i hitted my bed. Lols.

5th.June: Went to elias in mid afternoon to meet bi and co. (?) Nua there until 10plus then bi sent me home. Wanted to sneak out again de, but i ended up snoring when i hit my bed! -.- What a noob. Hahahas.

6th.June: Went to tamp have lunch at DingTaiFeng with ahma, mummy and sis. Then ahma went for mahjong. We went to watch Hannah Montannah! WeeUWee! Lols. =.= Its kinda nice, but mummy was sleeping halfway through the show. Geeez! Hahahas. And the cinema only have small kids with their parents! -.- I can't seem to grow up eh. Lols. Then me and sis went to whitesands meet bi for dinner. Then bi sent me home. I had a fever of 38.5 upon reaching home! Wtf. -.- Then it went down around 10plus. Snores.

7th.June: So the fever's gone. And i went prawn fishing with sis, daddy and bro. How boring! I was rotting there. They spent 30dollars for 7 pathetically small prawns, except for one mega huge one which is caught by yours truly! :DD Well, i was sitting there and daddy was like bringing brother walking around. I hanged the pole there and the stupid mega huge prawn bit onto the bait. Idiot. Lols. So... They were amazed by me lahh, see i so pro right! Weeees. Then bbq the prawns, bought food home. I only ate the mega huge prawn caught by me! Lolly~ And and and, i'm having the fucking fever again lahh. 38.5! Fuck it. ): And bi's coming over to find me. Yay! I missed him you know. :D So ciaos humans.

P/s: I love two! (:

Dor: I got boyf le lehh. How? ):
passerby: I'm afraid not, sorry.
Angela: Thanks. (:
hahas!: ): Why say out my secret, who are you?

A twist in things,

2009-06-01T23:59:00.002+08:00

Alvin came my house at around 7plus. He waited for my to prepare finish, and we're on our way to school. No, is he send me go school. LOL. Then he waited for me in school until i finish school, then off we go to century square. I ate in foodcourt, he see me eat. Lols. Then we catched the movie, Angels And Demons. I don't really catch any ball. Oh wells.

Then he need go attend court and i need to go meet my audrey baby. Lols. He sent me to busstop and pei me wait for bus. Reached audrey hse, was like totally shag and tired. Hahas. Talked and cocked, then see audrey prepare and we went to parkway watsons buy things.

Then off audrey go to Singapore expo, and i waited for cab at the taxi stand. The queue's quite long and the freaking sun kept shining on me. Like free one lahh. -.- Then i was like sweating like fuck. Hahas. Finally go inside cab, got aircon. O: Then after $13.50 worth of cab fare, i'm at elias with alvin. Hahas. Alvin pei me go foodcourt eat. (: Goner 3, gordon, aloysif were there. Slacked, cocked, pg-ed (If you don't know whats that, i won't be telling you whats that. O:) I pg abit only lahh. They don't let, i keep snatching from them then they snatch back. Lols. Wtf~

Then blahblahblah, thing's got different. They can never be the same again. I won't say anything here. Only those who were present at elias knows. I'm sorry, i don't have a choice.. Home sweet home.

P/s: A, a part of me still misses and loves you.

Feon: Thanks feon! :D

OMG!

2009-05-31T21:30:00.001+08:00

Hello humans. I went shopping, but i'm not satisfied enough! ): Can anybody just give me a fucking $650? BECAUSE i fucking saw the gucci bag lahhhhhhh! I want it, i want it, i want it! D: Well, at least i get to buy my $400 CK bag that i've been eyeing since forever back then. Hohohos! And and i bought that CK jacket and hoodie dress (?). Then i bought a top from forever 21. And makeup from M.A.C. And let me think, i think no more. Well, today was really tiring lahh. Not enough energy, slept at 5 then woke up at 8. Was talking on phone with alvin. Geeeez! I need to sleep early today yo! Tmr need wake up early, can't be late for school. Cause got that fucking test. -.- Sure fail. Lols.
And i swear i really miss acwk. ): I wish i'm at elias now, if only i can teleport. Hmmmmmmm.

P/s: I need to get this over and done with soon!

Dor: Kau jakap aper? Hahas! (:

Random like -.-

2009-05-31T02:54:00.002+08:00

Somehow, somewhat, i think that men are created to destroy women.
On the other hand, women are somehow, somewhat created to destroy men as well.
-.- Sounds like lame only. I know its god damn random. I have nothing better to do what. ): Alvin's at elias, i'm at home stoning/rotting. Geeeeez, so so bored y'know. I have to wake up at 7, look at the time now already. Tsk! ): GSS! I'm coming in a few hours time! Wait for me. (As if it'll run away lahh!) -.- Lamelamelame. Cockcockcock. Randomrandomrandom. NoLinknolinknolink. Siansiansian. Crazycrazycrazy. I have no idea, what the shit am i doing here. Snores. I think a few more texts to and from alvin, i'm off to lalaland. God damn tired. ):

P/s: Acwk, you better don't pg like how you promised me ah. If not, you die! (: Love.

Fuck the monster inside me, i swear i'm a fucking goner! Fuck this shit that's happening to me lahh! >:

I'm a fucking goner man!

2009-05-30T23:59:00.000+08:00

Met audrey darling at tamp around 5. Ate at food court. Then went for a puff. And off to coffee bean for some 'studying'.

I studied for only like 15mins?! Lolol. Monday i'm GG already dude. Then alvin finally wake up. Hohohos. ;D Then me and audrey waited for carrian and his friend to drive us to elias. From 7 wait until 8plus. Pro yo! Then stupid gordon call me and scold. Wtf. -.-

Finally reach elias. Basically, we just rotted there lahh. Smoked, pei audrey darling go eat, sit inside lan stone, audrey darling draw mindmap. =.=! Then pei carrian go mac eat. Then wait for alvin finish his things. Then alvin sent me home. (: x33333333333333s!

P/s: I miss you, acwk. ):

Life's boring.

2009-05-29T23:21:00.002+08:00

Hello, here to update. Don't want my blog full of spiderwebs. Hahas. Well, i haven't been cam whoring recently. So, no pictures. Too bad, go cry to your mama. LOL! -.- Lame.

Last friday rot in school do com prog revision then watched Night In The Museum 2 with froggy and leroy. Then i went to marina meet mel, audrey, junle, adp. Then slacked (?) Mel, adp and junle came my hse to play cards. Lols. Then mel went off, junle and adp ton at my place.
And the rest of the days are just a bore.

Yesterday night, alvin and friends came to my place ton. They brought vodka peach with mixer sprite. Fucking nice i tell you okay. Hahas. Then played cards. And i slept 1 hr before preparing for school. Had breakfast at kovan with them then they cab me to school.
Then after school rotted at safra. See classmates play pool until i fall asleep. Hohos. Then me and hil hil went to froggy hse. I made myself a nutella toast. :D
Then i slept for 30mins before heading to e hub meet alvin. We bought sour plums that was salty! -.- I make him eat one everytime i eat one too. Hahas. Then i spit the seed on his hand. -.- Like dustbin sia. LOLOLOL. Walked around and we caught the movie Terminator (?). Okokay only lahh, don't catch any ball at all. LOL. And and and, its been half a year since alvin caught a movie! Gosh. Then then then, i was like freezing inside the cinema can! -.- Then after movie, meet mel and audrey. Went pasta mania eat. Then they went off to catch their movie. Then me and alvin and alvin's friend like nua at the entrance? Then alvin sent me home. :D I'm the first girl he help to carry bag, LOL. Like honoured only lahh can. -.-

P/s: I wish it was only a nightmare. ):

Willyk: YOU jiaobin. :D
T.SiewTing: Linked! :DD
Sly: Spocks ARE so cool. Lols. Cooler than the mutated evil frog villain
lahh!

Entertainment purposes. =.=

2009-05-24T00:59:00.006+08:00

This story is dedicated to SYLVESTER, the FROGGY! :D

Once upon a time, there's this guy called sylvester. One day, he was fucking a tree in some park. Then suddenly a frog appeared and jumped onto his face. He was very very traumatised. He don't dare to eat frog porridge. Somehow, after that incident, his features became more and more like a frog. His thinking also. one day, he was sitting in the bus and the bus suddenly went out of control. He stuck his tongue out, trying to grab onto a pole beside him, but realised that his tongue was too short. So he went home, and did research. A month l8r, he managed to come out with a formula to mutate himself to be frog man! The ingredients consisted of lots of frogs squished into liquid form and chemical X. However, during the process, he added in too much chemical X. He then became the mutated evil frog villain! His brain went haywired. He started planning on how to infiltrate all the frogs' minds so as to make the frogs all jump on innocent human's faces and make them traumatised like what he went through. Poor humans. ): Well, then MY master, Spocks master created me, Limpei spocks 1, and 3 other juniors, spocks 2, anyhow spocks 3 and spocks 4. We're now in the midst of strategizing how to defeat the mutated evil frog villain. May the good win! -.-

THE END.

Sly: Blahhhh. Lols.
sinyi: D:
€ђάή Ķάήğ™: Lols, okay. Linked both le. (:

I believe that,

2009-05-21T21:59:00.015+08:00

I'll be spamming pictures. Hohos. I have nth to blog about. ):

I flunked my math quiz, 5/20. I'm so going to screw my web design quiz. I think my engineering fundamental quiz can pass. I think no more tests that i had le bahh. Lol. And and, monday is my engineering fundamental lab quiz. Fuck it, sure fail. OMG! Fuck school life.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAREN BESTIE!! :DD

P/s: L.Yiling is leading a fucking no lifer life! ):

And and and, tag me fucking alot lahh! My tagboard's like no life also lehh.

sinyi: Updated dear! :D
T.SiewTing: Heees, thanks. :D
Audrey: You just saw me like yesterday and the days before? Hahahas.
HELLO: Yeah. (:

Crushed by love.

2009-05-12T20:43:00.003+08:00

Friday: I went home after school, so guai eh. :D Hilmi sent me home, and we did some engineering fundamental before we went to katong for haircut. At night went to parkway meet mummy for dinner at Aston's. The mushroom soup is so yummy. O:! Heees. Then went back mummy hse. Oh yeah, i bought mummy flowers for mother's day present. :D

Saturday: Went to XingFuYingCha with mummy, sister and ahma for lunch. Then ahma went home and we bus-ed to orchard. Caught the movie, RamenGirl. It was nice yo. Hahas. Then mummy and sister wanted to catch another movie, but i went to tamp to meet eugene instead. Helped him out with his mother's day gift and dinner at pasta mania. Took quite a few pictures, but i don't have it now. Lols. Must wait until our next meeting, then he can send me. O:! Then we walked around and around. Then he sent me back to ahma's hse. (:

Sunday: Went to ergu's hse for lunch. Then i did some online shopping, spent 200plus USdollars. ): I hope the clothes faster come! Heees. Then just nua there then nua home lohh. Nothing special. Lols.

Monday: Late for school. ): School's boring. Blahblahblah! Nic came to school find me and hilmi for dinner, then hilmi went off. Me and nic went to tamp mall. Bought contact lenses and pierced my eyebrow. Hees. Then cabbed home. Snores.

Tuesday: Late for school again. ): School's boring. =,= Then jaron and nic came to find me in school. Had lunch with jaron, nic, hilmi and sly at mensa. Then library with hilmi, nic and jaron. Did some math. Nic played psp, jaron and hilmi slept. Hohohos. Then jaron disappeared to go meet audrey. Then hilmi, nic, sly and me bus-ed to tamp mall. Nic and me went to find jaron and audrey. Dinner-ed at food court and saw alpha. Then bus-ed home.

P/s: I'm lost for words.

karen: You then fat lahh idiot! D: Bff where will go exercise one siol?
LOL!
K.elly: Thanks.

Bit by bit,

2009-05-07T23:54:00.002+08:00

Yesterday i went to parkway with audrey. Gossiped. Then go poly clinic meet nic. Then meet lewis. In conclusion, there's nic, lewis, samuel, derrick, huihui, zhenyang, jaron, kelly, audrey and me. I didn't miss out anyone bahh. Lols. Then grandlink with samuel, lewis, derrick, huihui. The rest flown away. I L4D-ed while the rest dota-ed. Like boring only. Lols. Then bus-ed home at 9 plus? :D *All i felt was stress seeing you. ):*

Today was late for school again lahh, standard one. Snores. After school meet audrey, mel and adp. Went to tm buy tickets for TAKEN. Pasta mania-ed and open plaza-ed for dai ti. Lovell and yingchuan came. Then movie-ed. The show is fucking fucking fucking nice! O: The ending part was touching, i almost felt like crying. Hohos. Then i cabbed home.

P/s: You seem far.

YIJING!: -.- Whatever~

L.Weixiong's!

2009-05-06T01:15:00.002+08:00

Sorry for not updating for like a week? Hahas! Nothing to blog about mahh.
My life is fucking boring nowadays.
Going to school now feels like a chore, how i wish someone would drive me to school everyday. ): Spon me cab fare also can lahh. :D Hahas.
Uh, have been late for school the whole of last week, Monday also late and yesterday i never go school. Snores!
Had a test on web design on monday, obviously i don't know how to do lahh! Only know how to one qns, the rest is either anyhow bomb answer or anyhow do one. Heees!
Had been going to tamp coffee bean slack for the past few days, changed to starbucks yesterday. Hahas!
Daddy went to cambodia and will be back on thursday. So i'm like the king now lahh. Lolol.
But he never transfer me money before he flew! @!#$%^&*()
Followed eugene and his band to jamming last friday.
The above are not in order. Hahas. I think nothing more to add le bahh. Oh yeah, i hope i won't be late for school again tmr. ):
Lastly, i love lokeweixiong baby. :D He's in camp now. ):

Nic, eugene, me. Nic's being extra, hohohos! I look fat. -.- Eugene is fucking tall! ):

Eugene playing his bass. O:

P/s: Suddenly, loving you felt very alien to me.

zhuang jie: ISIT?! Hahas, what course you in? Yeah, he's funny lahh. :D
YIJING!: Whatever, you think i got time to watch mehh? LOLS.
hilmi: You teach me bad! ):

What's the point,

2009-04-29T21:59:00.002+08:00

Woooooo! I'm fucking tired. Yawns. Think i'm going to fall sick soon. Sheesh. ):
Edwin came over my hse ton last night. Talked about life and many lame stuffs until fell asleep on the bed. Then cannot wake up on time for school today.
So i didn't go for math tutorial. Was just on time for wrtoral though. Hahas. I love attention, but i feel stress when the attention's coming from an audience. Oh my. ): I'm dead for presentations dudes. Then lunch with hilmi and slyvester and this guy in school. Then hilmi, slyvester and me bus-ed to century. Played maximum tune. Weeeets! O: Then hilmi's friends came, and we went to watch x-man. It was the second time i've watched it, LOL! Then bus-ed home.
Btw, i promised myself to be home after school, end up now then reach home. Tsk.

P/s: I'm blowing up your mind, ain't i?

Dying bit by bit,

2009-04-28T22:13:00.004+08:00

Late for school today, again! -.- 2hrs somemore. Zai right. LOL. -.- Hilmi late also. Hahas. Went to class tgt, teacher never scold. =.= School's driving me nuts! Snores. Can't concentrate, don't really know what's happening. Oh my my my. ):

After school, had lunch at mensa with marcus and hilmi. Technically speaking, marcus didn't ate anything. LOL. Then marcus went off, then smoked with hilmi and slyvester. Slyvester's jacket's big. Like dress like that. I mean when i wear it lahh. Hahas. Then library with hilmi. He taught math and we side tracked alot! Omg. Hahas. Then he went to gym and i went to meet audrey, eugene and dorothy at tm. Then eugene and dor went off. Nic came. Went to eat at century food court. Then jaron came. Eat finish smoke. Smoke finish bus home. I'm disappointed.

Marcus on left and Hilmi on right. Lols.

Audrey on left, dorothy on right.

P/s: I've waited for 4 months plus and i finally get to hear you say it once again.

dawn: School's not exactly busy, its just that i don't follow. Hahas. Yeah, stress about school work and other things. (:
jaron: Don't be like a small kid. Getting jealous of me having fun. Snores!
=.=

Losing my sanity,

2009-04-27T22:17:00.004+08:00

Late for school today, ): Well, it wasn't my fault that i didn't hear my alarm right?? :D Hahas. Anyway, hilmi was late as well. And he bought strawberry lollipo for me! Yuck! )): Well, we lied that the bus broke down, hope she didn't really go call sbs transit and check uh! Hohohos. I don't seem to have the motivation to concentrate in school you know. Guess the holiday mood's still not over yet. Blah! School's boring, somemore i understand no shit lahh! ): Lunch-ed with marcus and hilmi at IT school. Then after school, i gave marcus heart attack twice. :D And and hilmi was like piggy backing me alot today. O:! Lols, after that went dinner at pasta mania with hilmi. Fucking full. DDR-ed at arcade, i'm noob and catched sweet, even noober! -.- The nic called and say he haven't eat. Hahas. So we acc him go eat, then home sweet home.

There's marcus behind me! O:! Oh oh oh, i keep falling asleep on bus journeys home recently. Fucking yawns okay. ))):

Apparently he doesn't like bean sprouts and neither do me and hilmi! Yay, clap hands. O:!

Oh yeah, i'm soooo strong! :DDDDDD

P/s: A heart so dead that it'll cease to feel.

YIJING!: Wtf, you think i'm like you uh. So hua chi. -.- Snores.
kaisheng: Yeahs! Hahas, he's cute. O: !

It ended once and for all.

2009-04-26T19:33:00.003+08:00

School's boring yet slack. I can't rmb what happened on wednesday. LOL! -.-

Thursday i had lunch with karen in school, then i went for lessons. After school went to tampinese mall with hilmi and marcus. The above picture. Hahahas. I bought my photo album. We had dinner at swensons. Then after that, we slacked. Audrey, dorothy and eugene came to look for me. Hilmi and marcus went off. Then we walk walk then i left for home. Yawns.

Friday i skipped my lecture. Hohos. I got a lollipop from hilmi. Hahas. Then me and marcus and hilmi went to parkway, i print my pictures. And we ate at sakae sushi. Fucking full i tell you, hees. Then went to play pool, i was high over balls! -.- Lame. Hahahas. Then slacked at mac then pool-ed again. Then i went home. Yawns.

Saturday i went to woodland take my medical report, then went to jaron hse watch x-men. Then go tamp meet audrey and dorothy and eugene. Then blahblahblah. Went drinking with audrey, dorothy, siewting, bai, jaron and nic. Actually only me and dor drink lahh. Snores. Lols. Then i vomitted out my dinner. And cabbed home. Yawns.

Btw, that's my wrtoral teacher in the above picture. O:

P/s: You're a fucking bitch that don't know whats good for you.

YIJING!: Hahahas. Lols.
mel: Hahas. Return me my sticks. O:!
ADP: Lols, he loves me more. Hees. :B

My dear,

2009-04-21T21:51:00.004+08:00

Friday: Went to work, then went home bath and change and went to parkway then to tamp meet nic. Then we bus-ed to woodland, mrt-ed to admiralty meet kelly. And walked to jaron's house. Ate jaron's mama cook de dinner and we all ton-ed there. Remind me never to ton there again. My nose was so effing itchy lahh sia. Lols.

Saturday: Bused home and went to bedok inter meet mel and bus-ed to tamp meet audrey. Bought nicol's birthday present and bus-ed to pasir ris. Ate and then i went off to meet gordon for some slacking. Then sebas came. I drank-ed and fucking seh! -.- Sat under void deck until 4plus then go back chalet. Gambled and i lost 85dollars!! ): CB! Zzz.

Sunday: Had mac breakfast before cabbing home. Reach home, bathed and prepared. Went to paragon for lunch with family then walk walk and ergu hse. She have a chow chow. Fucking cute i tell you. Lols. Then went home and prepared school stuff. I finally had my sleep at 8plus.

Monday: First day of school, i was a loner. -.- Only at the last hour of lessons i made a new friend. Laughs! Pathetic. -.- School is boring and i catch no ball for the wire thingy. ): Whatever. I had lessons from 9 to 5. ): Zzz. Then jaron came school fetch me at 5. Went to tm, i bought 2 bags. ): 86dollars. O: Then nic came and we had dinner. Walk walk, blahblah. I bus-ed home at 8.

Tuesday: School's still a bore. 3 hours only today, 10 to 1. Emath lecture is boring. Zzz. Math is still not my favourite. Hahas. Then i made another new friend today. Teehees. :B After school went to damai meet cqr they all, then i bus-ed to mac meet mel. Nicol came, and audrey came. I had lunch there. Then i bused to parkway meet jaron and jiejie. Played pool abit and we went to lewis there to have dinner. Then we all go parkway, i go find mummy awhile. Then arcade and handphone shop. Then bus-ed home.

P/s: Awaiting friday, 3 more days. IMY.

jaron: Closed arms cannot ah? -.-
sinyi: Okokays! Soooon soooon oh. :D

By tomorrow,

2009-04-16T23:54:00.004+08:00

You said that what you want is what i want. I don't know what exactly it is that i want and need. Your words hit the bulls eye my dear. I don't know whether to believe you or them. My mind's in a swirl now. I can't think properly. Inside of me, there's like two person, contradicting with each other. What's right and what's wrong, i cannot differentiate anymore. I'm not like whom i used to be anymore. Now i'm just blinded by love and then pulling myself away from you. Because my dearest, i cannot afford another heart ache. So please, don't play with my feelings. You want an answer by tmr. Can you tell me why? Isit because you can't wait or isit because tmr's the seventeenth? I say that we can never be like how we used to be, you say can. I say we didn't scolded each other in the past, and you said neither do we now. But baby, the truth is right infront of your eyes. Are you trying to cover it up for the better of us or for the better of you? I have no idea what you're thinking. Love's just a dangerous thing, i'm past that stage. I cannot live in something so dangerous anymore. You say its our last chance and i say i need time to figure out your love. So baby, should we take it slowly? You said that you love me the most and cannot forget me, i feel the same. Only my feelings are a thousand times more stronger than yours. The thirst of needing you by my side burns so strongly. I love you and i need you. I can't seem to walk out of our past. So baby, one last question. Do you need me?

I think it's about time,

2009-04-15T23:57:00.001+08:00

I'm so tired, so sleepy. ): All nic's fault! Call me wake up at 730 in the freaking morning. Prepared and mrt-ed to admiralty mrt meet him and jaron. Breakfast at foodcourt. Sth cute happen lahh sia. O: Then bus-ed back to jaron's hse. Nua-ed there until 1plus. Then mrt to woodland, 168 to tamp and 8 to TP. Nic went home halfway through the bus journey. Supposed to go for medical checkup one, then not enough time. Sheesh. Handed in my things for TP and then we bus-ed off to parkway. Had lunch/dinner at some kopitiam. Then bus-ed to zhenyang's hse. Jaron and zhenyang went swimming. And nic came to meet us. We two rotted there. Then after everything. Nic and jaron send me go parkway meet mummy and they went back to jaron's hse. Had dinner at Aston's with mummy. Cheap and good and full. Hohohos. Then chatted and bought cigg and cabb-ed home. Daddy's not home yet. I'm suddenly feeling moody, i don't know why. Big big sigh! ):

I'm not a fool, so don't treat me like one. I tried salvaging everything months ago. You turned your back against me, it hurted so deeply. And now its all too late, so save your energy. I'm not yours and neither are you mine anymore. I doubt that we were ever meant to be. Please stop playing with my emotions, they're hanging on a thin line. Breakable at any slightest weight. And from now onwards, i'll be very very careful to whom i'm entrusting my heart with. It's just too fragile, broken once and never twice. I won't get myself stuck in the whirlpool of love anymore. I gave up on love long ago..

P/s: Put the pieces of my heart back together again.

Audrey: Hello my love.

This is really random stuff.

2009-04-15T00:16:00.003+08:00

Daddy once told me that it's a women's responsibility to spend men's money. I don't know if its true. I'm still trying to figure it out. Lol.
I've learnt not to put my 100percent into any relationship. Yes my dear, i've truly learnt.
I wonder if guys are more calculative than girls.
There's hate because of love? I don't know how true isit.
Somedays, i just want to wish myself away from Earth.
Other days, i'm like a crazy woman.
I'm born with an attitude that not much can stand.
I'm born to shop and spend money.
I'm born to love and to be loved.
Somehow, i really wish that i'm not sucha bitch.
Oh well, life's unfair. I knew.
And lastly, after 1 year 1 month and 30 days, i realise that i should walk out of your grasp and lead a life of my own. Maybe i've really owed you and i shall return it all back to you in my next life.

P/s: 爱情是一道伤横.

Its just a little too late,

2009-04-14T22:35:00.004+08:00

And so, i didn't went to work today. Woke up late. Went to RP do withdraw and IMM for mac lunch and Jurong for laptop. Left my laptop there for repairs.

Then mrt-ed down to tamp meet nic mummy. Walked around and around and around. Kns. Then smoked at staircase, security guard come take down his name. Lucky, i not holding cigg. -.- Okays, i'm sucha bitch. Lol. Then kelly and another girl came. And jaron came. We watched SNIPER. Edison Chen so fucking cool and handsome. Drools* Hees. After movies, bus-ed home.

Don't act as if you're cool with everything. Don't make it sound like you're a love saint. Don't go one big round and shoot me. I despise guys with no balls. I know deep down in your heart, you're blaming me. Okays, whatever. Screw relationships alot! FTW, single still the best. I swear never never to use any guy's money ever again! Except money from my family. Alright, i'm blabbering nonsense. I'm just so pissed off now. And grandpa, i miss you so dearly. Was it you in my dreams the other night? I can rmb only so vaguely. I really miss you alot. ): This life of mine sucks, i wanna go to heaven and accompany you. But maybe i can only go to hell.

P/s: I know how unimportant i am in your heart.

sinyi: Weeee. :B
karen: You don't lie. You too busy for me! D:

I want to find back,

2009-04-13T23:41:00.003+08:00

Went to work. Then boring as usual lahh. Hahas. After work, went to katong. From katong walked to parkway. Waited for 45mins for jaron and nic mummy to come. Kns! I sit down there count buses then report give mummy which bus go by how many times, blahblah. Walao eh! Like retarded like that lahh! D: Then they finally reached. At parkway walk walk? Hahas. Then go foodcourt eat abit. Then walk walk somemore, and waited for mama to finish work. Then jaron and mummy went off. I go meet mama for supper. Lols. Then cabbed home.

P/s: I can't find my way back to your heart.

Angels crying,

2009-04-12T20:12:00.003+08:00

SATURDAY: Fucking tiring day lahh. Woke up by jaron at 11plus. Bathed and prepared, cabbed down to sengkang meet him. Went gym and swimming with his cousin. Laughs. Then bathed and cabbed to woodlan, jaron packed his bag. And we cabbed down to east coast park meet nic mummy. Hahas. It started raining and we went to arcade for a few rounds of maximum tune. Then the rain stopped and we went to rent roller blades. I finally know how to roller blade! Woooots. :D Then qirui and his two other friends came to meet us. We skated to lagoon there for water break. And went back to the rental shop. I fell down twice, and my knee bleed! D: Jaron fell down thrice! Hohohos. And nic fell down once too. Damn retarded! Hahahas. Then went to mac nua abit and went to the japanese restaurant eat. Bus-ed home with nic. Like sports day lahh sia. Hahas.

SUNDAY: Tired, i wanna sleep. ): Went to visit grnadpa. Then go yishun there go see great grnadmother and great grandfather. Then go eat steamboat and home sweet home.

And maybe it's all a joke. It ain't real. I just want a smoke badly.

P/s: There's no denying that we weren't meant to be.

sinyi: I love youuuu. :D
jaron: Okayyys. x3s

I wouldn't take the risk,

2009-04-10T23:59:00.001+08:00

Yesterday went to work then after work go tamp meet nicol, adp and mel. We went to tampinese one walk. Fucking alot pple. Then we go to the open space there play card. Then nicol's sister and mummy came. Then we continue walking. Then after that nicol's sister's boyf came. And we walked somemore. Then saw some dogs. Blahblahblah. Then cabbed home. Daddy nagged at me! D:

I was supposed to go zoo today one lahhhhhh! Then some idiot say don't want go le. Make me shagggggg. Hahas. Then went to cityhall meet jaron, nic, derrick, huihui, this girl and this guy (I don't know their names. :B). Then went to marina square. Also pple mountain pple sea. See le headache. Damn sian. Hahas. Then ate at foodcourt. Then wanted to watch movies but the rest can't make it. Then they went off, left me, jaron and nic. Then we walked to suntec there take cab go hougang mall meet jaron's auntie they all. Ate ice-cream at foodcourt. O: Then walked walked. Then we cabbed to tamp mall watched fast and furious 4. Quite nice, not very exciting though. Lols. Then i smoked in the shopping centre. -.- Then cabbed home.
Gym, swimming, roller blading and movies tmr. Will i die of exhaustion? :B

RANDOMMMMMM..

What's this thing about guys saying that they wanna pamper and love you? To me, when you say you wanna pamper me it means giving me the world. You have to fulfil every desires and every wants of mine. I want money, power and place. Can you give it to me? I have desires that nobody can ever give me. I desire to meet an alien, i desire to meet a vampire. Nobody can every satisfy these desires. So, why bother saying that you want to pamper me, when you can't give me what i want and desire? And when you say you love me, i expect you to love only me. Cannot have me and then outside like other girls all this. Who can do this? Even when i'm saying these, i can't even do these. So tell me, who can? So please don't cock with me alrights. There's no such thing called ever lasting love whatsoever. (:

P/s: I don't need love to live this life.

Audrey: Am i thinking what you're thinking? O:
wei xiong: Lols, okokays.
willy: O:!
YIJING: ANYTHINGGGGGG!

Bring my heart back from hell.

2009-04-08T11:36:00.004+08:00

Went to TP with nicol. Took my enrollment package and enrolled for school. Next is need go do medical checkup. Like waste of time, money and effort. Hahas. And i'm lazy to keep spamming acer's hotline. My laptop's cui sia! D:

After TP, bus-ed to tamp, took mrt, met audrey at bedok, continue mrt to city hall. Meet jaron. Ate lunch at pasta mania, then walked to suntec. Bought movie tickets for ShinjikuIncident (isit spelled this way?). Then arcaded, smoked, carefour-ed and movie-ed.

After movies, went to smoke. Chatted and stuff. Then audrey went off. Then left me and jaron.

We then walked back to suntec, go to the shop that sells the swords thingy ah. Lols. Then stayed inside there looking at swords. -.-

Then me and jaron mrt-ed home. (:

Jaron piggy-backed me alot today! Hohos, sweet! :DD

P/s: Bloody bitch's here! Relief flows through my bodyyy! :D

P/P/S: My tagboard feels dead. D:

YIJING!: Lame lahh sia! -.- You owe me 5dollars!!

You're drop dead gorgeous,

2009-04-07T22:59:00.003+08:00

Fuck the laptop! So easy spoil. Kena abit water only jiu go crazy! D: Lousy lousy laptop. Hmph!
Okays, enough of complains. I have a good news! I'm going to TP, not RP! :DD Cause TP just now call me say they offering me a place in info comm, then call me tmr go down collect enrollment package. Shiok-ness bodohhhxzxz! Hahahas. Lame. -.-
Another great thing is, I BOUGHT MY PUMA SHOES!! :D Happy happy happy. Teehees. Went shopping with ergu just now. I've also bought a vest, Estee Lauder's turbooooo mascara and lipbalm and concealor. 212 de perfume. Sk2 eye mask. Kiehl's don't know what oil and lotion (?). Laughs.
I'm very incoherent with words now. After saying all these. I wanna complain again. (:
Guys are all so self centered. Go fuck yourselves dudes. No offence, but i'm really implying to every living human which have a dick. (: Keep stressing me to patch, never think of my feelings, fuck you. Happy come call me, not happy fuck care me, never put yourself in my shoes, fuck you too. Keep contradicting yourself, never feel that how pissed i will be mehh, fuck you as well. Ownself never text me, become say why i never text you, fuck you real hard. All in all, fuck all the dicks in the world yo! :D
And and and, sheesha is niceeee.

P/s: We are two worlds apart.

passerby: Which pictures?

How do you piece it back,

2009-04-03T23:22:00.003+08:00

I wonder where you are now.

I wonder if you're still in thailand.

I wonder if you're in the plane now.

I wonder if you're in singapore already.

I wonder if you're still angry with me.

I wonder what you said is true.

I wonder why i love you so much.

I wonder of all the pple die each day, why isn't it my turn to die yet.

I wonder can we get back tgt.

I wonder how you haven't called me today.

I wonder will you feel how i feel.

I wonder why i destroyed it all for us.

And its all my fault, i'm sorry. If only time could have rewind. I miss you so so much. Your embrace, your kiss and your everything.

Its been 411 days, 9864 hours, 591840 minutes and 35510400 seconds. It'll continue, this i promise..

P/s: My blog posts are NOT emo in any way at all!

We could have made forever true,

2009-04-03T07:34:00.003+08:00

Hush baby hush, please stop crying. Please stop hurting inside.
I hate LeeYiLing. She sucks to the fucking core, she's so stupid, so effing bloody stupid. I wish i can kill her. Stab her with the knife, throw her down 17storeys, run her down with a bulldozer.
You really think i don't mind, i don't care? I'm only trying to comfort myself by saying these, and thanks so much for letting my heart fly up then drop dead down. How can i ever fucking express myself. How can the time fucking rewind. Other than sorry, what else can i say anymore? Its all my fault, really my fault. I despise myself. Grandpa, where are you? I miss you so much, can you please come and take me away from here? Let me go accompany you in where ever you might be. Grandpa, why do these sorrows never go away? Will you please please bring me away? I can't stand another heartache anymore. LeeYiLing, when will you die? You're making me feel so miserable. Faster go to hell, you deserve it all. If it isn't for you, i wouldn't be living in misery since then.
欧尔想象你的时后, 就让回忆来陪我.
原来湿的都是我哭红的眼睛.

P/s: Bring me through hell all over again.

Audrey: Don't think so anymore..

Turn round the corner,

2009-04-02T21:23:00.002+08:00

An overseas number called me today, i picked up. The voice sounded so familiar, yet i can't recognize it. You told me who you are and where you were calling from, i had many many mixed feelings inside of me. Surprise, elated, relief, shock and all the feelings are positive. Yes, you're calling me all the way from thailand. My dear, we're 1926km away from each other. Yet i feel you, so close in my heart. What's this called? I had been thinking about you and you called me, talk about the devil eh. I seriously feel so stupid when talking to you, i don't know what am i supposed to say or ask. Laughs. You wanted me to hear this thai song, am i getting your feelings wrong? I hope not, because the song speaks my heart. Baby, let's start all over again alright? You've played enough outside, i've also played enough outside. Its time to go back like the past. I hope that i'm not fooling myself again this time round. I hope what i thought it is, is what you've been thinking. I really missed you alot for past 3months. I really missed the 315days tgt. If possible, i swear that as long as we're tgt everything will be like the past. No more wilfulness, no more irresponsibility. You do know how much i need you, right baby? I love you. You had been a part of me, and you'll always be a part of me till i die. (: Maybe what i'm saying here is very messy or sth, but i just wanna express what i want you to know through here. So dearest, i love you very very much. If its the past, i would say it as i love you 10,000,000 times! Honey, i've tried so hard so hard, but you're like etched in my heart ever so deeply. Unable to erase. I wish that in your heart, i'm also etched deeply in it. I'm really glad that you didn't forget me, i was so afraid that you would. If time can rewind, i swear that i won't make that same mistake. If only you would give our love another chance, believe in our love one last, i would do everything that i can to leave no regrets behind. This i promise you. Will you let me back into your heart once again, bring the colour back into my life, light up the darkest nights for me? Lastly, trust me this time. I'm true to you.

kam waa rak man glaai bpen foon bpai laew
The word love, it's turning into dust already
a-rai tee wang gor pang bpai dtang naan laew
Whatever that's been hoped for, it's shattered a long time ago.
dtae chee-wit mai roo tam-mai man yang kong kaang kaa jai
Yet life, I don't know why, it still remains in my heart
mai mee wan dai tee chan mai jot jam
Never a day that I'll forget.
gap kam waa rak yang jam daai yoo sa-mer
The word love, I still remember it always.
lap dtaa took krang yang jer ter yoo dtrong nee
Everytime I close my eyes, I still see you here.
kwaam kem kaeng tee chan kao jai on ae long took naa tee
The strength that I know of feebly lessens every minute,
yoo dee-dee jai gor rong-hai eek krang
all of a sudden, my heart cries again.
yang kit teung ter leua gern dai-yin mai
Still missing you alot, can you hear me?
ter yang yoo nai hua jai kong chan
You're still living in my heart.
kom dtaa non took keun yang fan yang hen waa rao rak gan
I force myself to sleep every night, still dream of, still see that we're still in love.
ter yoo tee nai kit teung ter
Where are you? I miss you.
chaat nee mai mee sit jer jop laew gor kao jai
I don't have the right to see you in this life, it's over, I understand.
dtae ja hai tam yang ngai meua nai hua jai yang jot jam
But what am I suppose to do? When my heart still recalls.
kam waa rak yang por hai dtor chee-wit
The word love is still good enough to move on in life,
yang tam hai kit teung wan gao-gao lao nan
still makes me think of those good old days.
daai dtae wang leuk-leuk nai jai
I can only hope deep inside my heart,
ja mee baang mai sak wan
Will there ever be a day?
sing tee dee-dee lao nan ja glap maa
Where those good things will come back.
yang kit teung ter leua gern dai-yin mai
Still missing you alot, can you hear me?
ter yang yoo nai hua jai kong chan
You're still living in my heart.
kom dtaa non took keun yang fan yang hen waa rao rak gan
I force myself to sleep every night, still dream of, still see that we're still in love.
ter yoo tee nai kit teung ter
Where are you? I miss you.
chaat nee mai mee sit jer jop laew gor kao jai
I don't have the right to see you in this life, it's over, I understand.
tae ja hai tam yang ngai meua nai hua jai mee dtae ter
But what am I suppose to do, when my heart only has you in it?

P/s: Don't get too far away from me, i'll feel uncomfortable.

YIJING!: Lameee! -.- What or who is PS? Snores.
-benJi: Sorry benji! Hahas, its april fool's day. We all had fun, so come
on. Don't angry lahh. Treat you eat sweet. :D

Happy April Fool's Day.

2009-04-01T21:22:00.003+08:00

Met audrey at outram park station and train-ed to buona vista. Then 200 to haw par villa.

Omg, go there feed mosquitoes only. First and last time. All audrey's fault. ):

Then we went vivo. ate and slacked and april fool-ed pple. I wonder how many victims i've fooled. :B

Then home sweet home. I've pranked, audrey, adp, mel, junle, lovell, ben, val, cqr, miss faisah and zhenhao. Hohohos. Its once a year chance dudes, don't be mad at me. :D The previous post is obviously fake. Hahahas!! I didn't know pple cared about me. Wooooooo~

P/s: Stop bull shitting about how much you've loved me.

sinyi: I miss you too! :B

2009-04-01T01:34:00.002+08:00

i am yiling's father, does anybody know where she went to? she is supposed to be home by 11pm but she haven't reach home yet. and i can't reach her mobile. i'm afraid something terrible might have happened. i'm really worried now, and i don't have her friends' contact numbers. if anyone of you was with her or saw her, can you please please contact me? 94427382. thank you very much.

Deceit.

2009-03-31T19:03:00.003+08:00

Wishlist. (Random lahh.)
- Zoo and night safari with GCWN. (I doubt he'll want to bring me there though. Cause its kinda stupid. -.-)
- Be super good friends with a vampire. (Maybe he'll change me into everything i'm not now. Just like the cullens. :B)
- Fly around the universe in a spaceship with aliens. (Hope they won't like try any funny experiments on me though. Hohos.)
- Money money money! (Nobody will think that money is enough, just like me. Hees.)
- Shopping shopping shopping! (Every girl would love that what!)
- Manicure and pedicure. (Its been awhile since i've done them.)
- Massage and facial. (Its been 123456789 years since i've done them.)
- A COMPLETE AND HAPPY FAMILY! (Sheesh, why do others have and i don't.)
- GCWN to wake up sooooooon! (CB, sleep so long. -.- Actually i don't know he what time then sleep lehh. =.-)

I'm working at daddy office next week. Until school open. Don't call me out! My bank have no more money. SHIT! I need to put back the money that i've spent on shopping and i still bloody owe karen $150! Snores. Why didn't i strike the damn 4D i bought last week. Arghs! -.- Screw life man, sucks to the core, i swear 123456789 times!

And and i'm someone who's afraid of commitment. Hohohos! Like obvious eh? -.- Anyways, i know bitches out there are bitching about me. Don't dare to say infront of my face ah. Sheesh. Dogs! Screw you! Your mother armpit got algae, your father dick got maggots and your pussy hole is as big as if a lorry just went through it. (:

OH! I think adp will lose to mel about the bet. Geez, sorry adp. ):
He said 'loveyou' to me last night. *Flys to heaven and parachuted down to earth.* But then again, can this two words be real? Hmmmmmmm. Guys are so hard to figure out. o:

He takes drugs, sniffs glue, smokes seesha, have nightlifes and is so different from me. Do i want to be involved with somebody like this? Or maybe he really loves me enough to change? Sheesh, forget it. Love alone cannot change anybody or anything. If it can, i'm long changed. No matter how hurtful love can get, humans still want to fall desperately in love. And the ending? No, not happily ever afters but hell. Love inflicts pain. So why are humans so stupid to fall into the trap? Geeez. I've seen too much divorces and break ups. And guess what, after all i said i still want to fall in love. Totally ironic, contradicting and no link. Yes, i've noticed that myself. There's a reason why i think i'm an alien right. Hohos.

P/s: I miss GCWN.

YIJING!: OH! If only our family is complete. Geez, it ain't complete and
daddy still treats me like a small kid! D:
passer: Broke off. It ain't confusing at all. Simple words to explain it
all, i'm single now. (:

G A M E

2009-03-30T23:14:00.004+08:00

Meet adp and mel at TM. Ate pasta mania and walked around. Then mel went home, me and adp went to parkway. He bought his prepaid while i bought my wireless. No more fighting with sister for internet anymore. (: Then meet mummy and talk talk, smoke smoke. Thanks adp for the lunch. (: I think i didn't spend money today. CLAPS*! :D

You won't be his first, his last or his only. He's loved before and he will love again. But if he loves you now, what else matters? He's not perfect and neither are you, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he makes you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and admits to being human, and making mistakes.. Hold on to him, and give him all you've got. He is not going to quote poetry, he is not going to be thinking about you every moment. But he will give you a part of him, that he knows you can break. Don't hurt him, don't change him, don't expect too much from him. Smile when he makes you happy, cry when he makes you sad and miss him when he's not there.

P/s: Adrenaline rush through my body.

YIJING!: Which freaking post are you refering to? -.-
passer: Lols, i'm single. (:

And things can't get worse.

2009-03-29T18:51:00.002+08:00

P/s: Burning in hell should be able to end everything.

Insert own tittle here.

2009-03-28T02:13:00.003+08:00

Yesterday went to ehub with lovell and yingchuan. Played pool and then bus-ed to meet baby. Watched tv and slacked then home sweet home.

Gordon's lame! He called me and asked me for cheem words, then i'm like huh i don't know. -.- So i googles for cheem words for him! Haha! Then i googled meanings of cheem words that he don't know. So 3 cheers for google! :D Lols, lameeeeeeeeee. So all in all, gordon's dumb. Hohos. :B

P/s: Why didn't i have a complete family? ):

Audrey: Its kinda obvious lahh! -.-

Tell me

2009-03-26T23:03:00.005+08:00

Nua-ed at home whole day.

So obviously, nothing to blog about, laughs. Ciaos.

P/s: Why am i feeling so out of breath?

passer: Hahas, thanks! :D

Rewind time,

2009-03-26T01:08:00.003+08:00

SCREW IT SCREW IT SCREW IT!!!!!!!!!! I'M SO GONNA FUCK STH, FUCK THE WALL, FUCK THE BED, FUCK THE PILLOW, FUCK THE FLOOR, FUCK THE CUPBOARD. SNORESSSSSSSS. (I obviously don't mean it literally. I'm just feeling frustrated now.) SHIT SHIT SHIT. ARE YOU STILL ALIVE OR DEAD? DID YOU GET PLANE CRUSHED? DID YOU GET INTO A CAR ACCIDENT? GEEEEEEEEEZ. I'M SOOOOOOOO CRAZY NOWWW. I WANT TO WALK UP TO HIM AND FUCKING STRANGLE HIM TO DEATH. NO PARTICULAR REASONS WHY. AND I HAVE NO RIGHTS TO DO THAT. -.- FUCK! WHAT THE SHIT HEAD AM I TALKING NOW. SNORES SNORES SNORES. I DON'T KNOW WHAT ELSE TO THINK ANYMORE. ERASE ERASE ERASE. CONCUSSION CONCUSSION CONCUSSION. FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK. I'M SOOO TERRIBLY UPSET NOW, DO YOU FUCKING HAVE A CLUE ABT IT?!?!?! FUCK YOU LEFT RIGHT UP DOWN VERTICALLY HORIZONTALLY UPSIDE DOWN VERTICALLY UPRIGHT! SHIT YOU!!!!!!

Is it just me or is it love?

2009-03-25T22:52:00.004+08:00

Went to meet audrey at mac, i was late as usual. :B Then slscked and had lunch, then accompany her go back school take O level cert. Then we 21-ed, she dropped off at city plaza there to change bus home. I dropped at grandlink. Then played lan tgt with baby and co. They dota, i L4D. :D Played for hours. Then bus-ed back baby hse area, slacked and fetched baby's mummy home then i bus-ed home.

Once Upon A Time..

P/s: Are you missing me like i do?

passerby: Google it.
ADP: You are SICK what! Hohohos. Or do you mean UNWELL? :B

Love at first sight,

2009-03-24T21:58:00.003+08:00

23March: Went back to bnss with lovell, alicia, val and adp. We go back take o level cert. Then actually want have recess with mel and yc at canteen, but we're not allowed to roam ard school premises. Hahas. Oh welllllllll. So we slacked at tech view, talking and crapping. Hahas. Then 130 waited for yc finish school then went her hse slack awhile, mel came and yc prepared finish. Then i go bedok inter fetch baby, had mac for lunch. He bought mcchicken instead of mcnuggets. >: So we da bao-ed back give adp. Hahahas. Then slacked at lovell's hse. Then go eat, then play lan at grandlink with baby and adp. L4D!!!! :DDDDD Then me and baby cab go vivo, then i mrt-ed home.

24March: Nua-ed at home whole day. Good girl lehh me! :D Baby had work, tmr meeting him. :DD

Yongxin: Re-linked! :D
karen: F you, say me asshole. ): Your eye cream still with me!
Chanhuei: Hello chanhuei! I'm fine! You? :D
passerby: Dreamlight photo editor. Hahas, Thanks. (:
passer: Hahas.

Genting pictures.

2009-03-24T21:56:00.002+08:00

Went to genting at 19th, 20th and 21st march. (: Weeeeeee. :D
P/s: Thanks karen for going with me! :DD

Chalet pictures.

2009-03-24T21:44:00.002+08:00

Pictures from audrey's cam. (:
P/s: Thanks everyone who came. :DD

Grant me eternity.

2009-03-18T23:17:00.006+08:00

Sat: Went to damai meet kenneth and danny. Go fetch dear and baby they all from camp. From 2 wait until 5plus. Snores. -.- Then cab go grandlink meet boyf. Waited for him to finish his dota. Then we bus-ed to bugis, shopping. Weeeee, then bus-ed back grandlink. Boyf played dota while i played L4D. :D Finally got sth i can play at lan shop le. :B Then bus-ed go safra meet baby and co. Pooled one round, and we all went home. We saw a motorcycle buang. Laughs!! :DD

Sun: Went to ECP with daddy, sister, brother and maid. Ate mac and went to walk walk, then walk halfway rain. Geez, the rain won't like give warning one sia. Snores. Then home sweet home.

Mon to Wed: Chalet. Shall post pictures from chalet soon and update abt it soon. Ciaos. :D

P/s: 原来我比想象中的还要爱

Dor: Snores. FURB.
Shihui: Hahas, thanks. :D
passer: Shane's my cousin. o: Laughs, but black hair's boring. Lols, thanks. (:
audrey: Okayyyys.
Passerby: Yeahs, welcome. (:

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2009-03-13T02:07:00.001+08:00

HAPPY ONE MONTHSARY BABY. (:

ILOVEYOU.

Lost like a child,

2009-03-10T23:24:00.001+08:00

Went to woodland meet alicia and val.

People mountain people sea at RP! At least also got 500 pple queueing for the enrolment. We see until shag, jiu don't want queue le. Besides ali and val never bring the documents needed. -.-

Went don't know what shopping centre outside woodland mrt. Arcade-ed, food court-ed, tai ti-ed and ali had medical checkup. Waited fucking long for her turn to finally come. Zzz.

Then we bus-ed back bedok with val's cousin. But they 2 dont know go where. Me and ali go meet loke, lovell, mel and adp. Blind mice-ed, 85 market-ed and ghost staircase. -,- Then bus-ed home.

I'm very very tired. ): I need to wake up at 630am to prepare go RP!! D: D: D:

P/s: I want to touch the stars.

You send me spinning,

2009-03-10T07:42:00.002+08:00

Hello! I'm so elated, excited and fucking happy! :D So yeah, i'm blogging early in the morning. Shouldn't i be sleeping now? I must be weird to wake up so early. Laughs. Okay, i'm like self highing. I slept around 4plus last night. And woke up just now at 6. D: So early wake up because baby come back singapore already!! :DD Lols. Missed him alot alot luhh. Anyways, i'm supposed to wake up at 830, so 1hr30mins don't really make a difference. Hahahas. :D I'm waiting for my breakfast now. Its been fucking long time ago since i had breakfast. Okay, my breakfast is now sitting infront of me, its noodles from the market. Hahahas. I go eat already, ciaos humans! :D

Dance with the devil.

2009-03-09T23:38:00.007+08:00

Went to 85 market with nicol and adp. We cam whored in the bus. -.- Then ali come 85 meet us. :D

I don't like mosquitoe bites, i don't like being sick, i want to be perfect in everyway. ):

P/s: Samuel, i miss you fucking manyxzxzzxx! ):

passerby: Yeah. (:
sinyi: I miss you dearly tooo. -.- Hahas. :D

Come back soon.

2009-03-07T00:51:00.003+08:00

Haven't been blogging for so long. Lazy to blog. Snores. -.- Recently very messed up eh. Hahas.

So today i met audrey and dor. Went to bedok inter, blahblahblah, then went to tamp mall, blahblah, then home sweet home.

AND AND AND! My baby went overseas already! D: I will miss you okays. No wait, i'm missing you now already. Thats bad, ): Quick quick come back oh! :D Wait for you. Mwacks. Loveeeees. (I doubt he can read this. -.-)

P/s: I wonder how have you been.

Audrey: We just meet few hours ago only. -.-
Yongxin: Welcome. (:
Passerby: There's 4 outlets. Parkway, whitesands, kovan and anchorpoint. The saloon's name is NK hairworks. About the price, must see your hair length. (:

Tags replied.

2009-03-03T05:13:00.002+08:00

Passerby: Uh, my daddy saloon lohh. Free. (: Laughs, thanks. (:
Yongxin: Woohoo. Link-ed. (: See you too.
alicia: Teehees! I very shy one. -.- Always got missing one, how to viwawa? ):
ADP: Laughs, but its niceeee what! Just ignore the vulagarities. :x
YIJING!: Okays. O:

It gives me hell,

2009-03-03T04:54:00.004+08:00

So many things i wish you knew. So many feelings i wish you felt.
If i had a choice, i wouldn't want to be like this.
If i could press re-set, i wouldn't let it slip by.
I want to be by your side everytime. I want to feel your every feel. I want to know your every thoughts.
I know i'm so screwed up and messed up now.
Sweet dreams that can never come true, Forever that have never existed.
Screaming my lungs out, thinking till my head's gonna explode, all i ever wanted is you.
You were a part of me, and you'll always be a part of me.
Jealousy, temptation, anger, hatred, confusion.
It burns me as though i'm living in hell.
There's a part of me that misses you, a part that craves for you, a part that loves you.
I want you to know, but i don't know how.
Do you feel the same?

P/s: Me and you were picture perfect, but i was too blinded.

Please don't turn back,

2009-02-26T22:53:00.003+08:00

Woohooooooo. I got my 75dollars pay because i worked 2 days in the office. -.- I'm soooo no link. Laughs. Finished work at 3. :DD Then bus-ed down to meet baby at his godfather hse. We ate steamboat. And i was thinking about eating steamboat during work. Hahas. Ain't it such a coincidence? :D Then slacked there and then go down walk walk with baby then i bus-ed home.

P/s: Screw the nightmare i had last night. ):

EDITED.
dawn: Hahas, thanks. :D
cassandra: I saw you at bugis TOO! You look sexyyyyy. Laughs. :D
passerby o.o: Hmm, do you like know me or do i like know you? -.- Laughs, thanks. :D

Defination.

2009-02-25T22:56:00.004+08:00

Happy Fifteenth Birthday Cqr Baby! :D

Today stupid kenneth woke me up saying, 'Yiling! Wake up! I at home very sian! Faster come down mama meet me lehh.' And i'm like snoressss. ): I didn't get to sleep for extra 30mins! D: Then bathed and prepared. Went to meet kenneth and we bus to mama, ate at mama and rotted there until sinyi dear come out. Then the rest came out also. I pei dear go century square do her phone. Then i treat her eat oreo cheese cake. -.-

Then mrt to bedok meet jojo, martin and kenneth. Then we go the mrt there meet zeting and regina. Then cqr baby, black and danny came. Then we mrt to vivo. Then meet yuting there. Then we go sentosa. Play play play, then we go bath. Then go vivo there. On the way to eat, we saw a HI-5 machine thingy. Then we sat on it. 2 DOLLARS OKAY! So expensive. ):

Only i ate pasta mania. -.- The rest waited for me then we go kfc eat. Then go smoke, then slack abit. Then we all went home.

P/s: I'm really missing you so badly. ):

Sinyi: Weeeeeeeeee! :D
alicia: My viwawa character is not naked anymore! :D Aiyoh, don't like that say eh, i will shy one.
ADP: CHANGED lahh ang dun dun. Laughs. (:

Samuel Oh's mine! :D

2009-02-24T23:03:00.006+08:00

Friday went for laser, then go kallang leisure park meet baby. (: We watched what show ah? Waot wait, let me think. Snoresssss. Oh yeah, we watched LOOK FOR A STAR. I rate it 4stars. :D Then i went to work.

Then i fired my supervisor! :D Yeah, fuck you bitch, you deserved the embarassment. So yeah, i'm out of job now. -.- Went to Terminal 2 find karen, we communicated through a piece of paper. -.- I ate teppanyaki for $5.50. Cool huh! :D

Then i mrt-ed to kallang there find baby. Slacked at his hse. Watched tv with his mama. (: Then ard 12plus i cabbed home.

Saturday woke up and bus-ed to meet baby at his hse. Then mummy jio-ed me go tampinese mall watch movie. Ate at swensons, and went to watch NEW IN TOWN. I rate it 3.5stars. :D Then we took cabby home. (:

Sunday, nua-ed at homeeeeeeeee. :D I goodgirl lahh sia. Laughs. Viwawa-ed, i think? O: Can't rmb. Hahas. But if really viwawa-ed, its with adp, junle and ali. :D

Monday went bugis with baby. Go temple prayed, then go eat.

Then watched movie, PINK PANTHER 2. I rate it 4.5stars! Inspector Clueso (?) is so freaking cuteeeee! :D Oh my, super super cute. Teehees. :D

Then we went to baby hse nearby walk walk, along the river (?). Then i bus-ed home. (:

Today go work at daddy office. I 1 then reach. :x Heeees. Then work is sooooo boring, time passes by sooooo slowly. Snoressssss.

Then go fetch sinyi dear and we went to CC. Meet cqr, regina, zeting, martin, dexter, kenneth and black. (I hope i don't leave any names out.) Then we go mac sit sit, they lamed and i ate mac. Martin, zeting and dexter went off at different times. Lols. Then everybody elso also went off.

I sent dear home, but on the way, kenneth call me and asked us to pei him go geylang then i can go play pool at grandlink.

So geylang is a scary place! -.- I never want to go there at night ever again. AND i will never ever wear sexily to geylang NO WAY! Its sooooo scary there.

When reached grandlink, i'm soooo happy. Laughs. :D I lose 4 rounds out of 4 rounds of pool! D: But i won 1 round out of 1 round of nine balls. Weeeeeees. Then i bus-ed home. (:

P/s: I miss you my samuel! :D

dawn: Geez, i didn't know my blog was so nice to read. Hahas. :D Thank you and we will. (:
sinyi: Yes yes dear, tmr. :D
reader: Welcome. (:

I'm god-damned tired.

2009-02-19T23:56:00.005+08:00

Happy 18th birthday lovell! :D

Shiok ah, legally aged. Officially got license to smoke and drink and club. Walao! Envious lahh siol. Nevermind, i 11 more months to go. Laughs!

So i woke up at 930am this morning. Bathed and prepared and bus-ed wo changi airport for work. But i was still late! Work starts at 12. Snores. Thats freaking killing me dude. I went work on an empty stomach, somemore need clean here clean there. Going die le lahh. Zzzzzzzz. And i'm soooooooooo not DA XIAO JIE at all okays! ): Finally 4pm reach. Go change clothes and went to buy birthday cake.

Mrt-ed to cineleisure, met up with ali, adp, ben, lovell and junle. Arcade-ed and foodcourt-ed. Then like so awkward cause of sth, shall not say it. Cause its very bad. -.- Hahas. Then we went to Long john silver de outside there cut cake. I started the whole cake smashing thing first. I noticed that its always i who start cake smashing first. -.- Then lucky i only kena abit, cause i have makeup on! Ain't it great to have makeup on? Laughs. :D

Then after which, all 6 of us squeezed into the handicap toilet to clean up. Then mrt-ed to ali hse (?) there. I'm a goodgirl, i only drank half can of beer. (See baby, i got listen to you hors, i drink abt only! :D) Then we played asshole taiti and cheat. Laughs. Then we went to playground, i played one round of blind mice and went off to bus home. (:

P/s: I miss my love alot! ):

reader: Bugis street, $18 i think. (:

sinyi: I love you many many, miss you deep deep. ):

What if...

2009-02-18T23:05:00.007+08:00

Woke up at 12plus. Baby don't let me sleep! Snores. Hahas. Then bath, prepared and mrt-ed down to plaza sing meet baby.

Watched THE WEDDING GAME. Yeah, again. Laughs. Baby haven't watch before mahh, besides there's free movie passes. Don't waste it mahh. Well, i intended to sleep during the movie, but i never sleep. Cause the movie's nice. Hahas. :D

Then we walked to parklane, played pool awhile then walked to bugis street. Walked at street, and i bought a tube top and a top. Laughs. Then we go to junction. I bought 2 T-shirts and a dress at flesh imp (?). Then baby bought a shirt too. Fuck, i spent 100 over dollars. ):

Then went to take neoprints. Weeeeeeeeeeeee. Hahas. Then we da bao beehoon go home eat. And i was busy planning about lovell's birthday and stuff that i forgot that i bought beehoon home to eat, until baby call me go eat. -.- How retarded can i get? Hahas.

Viwawa-ed with adp, junle and ali. Laughs, so funnnnnnn~ -.- I know next time i go lan can do what le. Viwawa! Laughs. :D

P/s: I am a bitch that he's so in love with. :D

Almost made it,

2009-02-17T23:59:00.004+08:00

Yoohooooos, i slept at 3 plus last night. (but baby insisted it was 230am. -.-) Okay whatever, now comes the angry part, gordon called me at 845 in the morning! Saying, 'Eh, i just reach home lehh, cannot sleep sia.' And i was like whatthefuck! I want sleep. Laughs. End up i hold the phone and sleep. -.- Like 2hrs plus i think? Hahas. But thats not the main point, the main point is, i hate it when pple disturbs me when i'm like sleeping like a baby. Lucky, i managed to fall asleep again. Hahas. Then i woke up at 12, baby texted me and i woke up. Snores. See how light a sleeper am i? So don't call or msg me at the wrong time! :D

Then i prepared and 81-ed to tamp mall to meet baby. (: Ate at pasta mania and walked around. Walk to century square then headed to take 69 to tp. So freaking hot, snores! Submitted my appeal letter. Then we headed back to tamp mall again. -.- Hahas. I bought a soft toy for baby. Its like fucking cute i tell you! :D Then karen came to meet me.

I bought a black flat heels. Then baby went to take bus home. Karen and i went to take mrt to changi airport, terminal 3. Took my uniform and went to change, karen help me tie the ribbon at the back and my hair. Heeeeeeees. I think i'll die if there's no her. ):

Karen ate there while i worked. The floor's fucking slippery, i almost felled down a thousand times! -.- Work sucks! I can't smoke. ): Then then then, the supervisor keep scolding me! Screw you bitch! Snores. I don't like work, but if i don't work, karen's gonna kill me. Snores. I have to clear tables, wipe tables, sweep the floor, and bloody many other things lahh. _!_ My shoes were hurting my leg, i was hungry, tired, thirsty. I'm very upset! D:

Finally when finish work, i bus-ed home. Reached home at 12plus. Zzz. I'm eating peanuts now! :D

P/s: I wish for lotsa money. The kind that cannot be spent finished, no matter how much i use. :D

Mirror mirror on the wall,

2009-02-16T22:29:00.005+08:00

Let me think what happened today, abit stm lahh ah. Wait uh. Think, thinking and thought! :D Was like supposed to meet audrey for slacking today, then she put me aeroplane. -.- Then intended to go find baby, put joanne texted me asking me out to slack. Then james called me out to lim kopi. -.- I was like okay, so i cabbed to eunos mrt meet james, he paid for my cab fare! :D Then joanne said she felt like sleeping jiu never go meet her le. Then james was like trying to sell me products, which were wayyyyyyy too expensive for me yo! Hahas. Then went to MDIS walk one round, then we went to meet up with lovell. Slacked and i ate maggi meeeeee. Hahas. Then i bus-ed 15 to parkway parade.

Meet baby, then we went to lewis workplace there eat. No wait, he eat i drink. :D Hahahahas. Then we went to find mummy awhile. Then cabb-ed to plaza sing, meet baby's gan jie. Then walked ard and arcade abit. Then walk around again, then baby's gan kor come. Then i mrt-ed home.

P/s: Awwwww, i miss my baby! ): But i'm talking to baby now. Heeeeees. :D

And and and, baby don't let me hong girls as well! How cuteeeeeee. Teehees. (: Love you, mwacks.

sinyi: Yeah, i think so too! :D Miss you.
ur lovely baby: Stupid bitch, of cause sweet lahh. My blog mahh! :D Hahas.
passerby o.o: I can't rmb anymore happy memories that happened between me and weixiong. So i guess, i'm happier now. Much more happier. (:
JoanneJosie: I miss you too! ):

I know no shit!

2009-02-15T22:42:00.002+08:00

Were you lying or was it my imagination?
Are they lies that you told me for the past few days?
I need to know, before i fall deeper.
Irriversible. Press reset and what will i do?

I'm just being random. My mood is totally down in the drains now. Why isit this way, i don't know. Is love about trust? What is love about? How can a broken heart be fixed? Karen says use super glue, then she suggested that i use a plastic heart, instead of a glass heart. Then i told her, use fire jiu melt le. Then she says use metal heart lahh, then i say use hammer hit jiu dented le. How random. Snores. I can't figure love out, neither can i figure you out. Fuck it lahh sia. Snores. I'm off to smoke my fucking mood away~ -.- Ciaos!

I know i need you, (L).

2009-02-15T21:02:00.005+08:00

And yesterday was valentine's day. I keep telling baby, 'What's the big fuck about valentine's day?! Snoresssss.' The big fuck about valentine's day is that, baby can have the chance to buy me flowers! Weeeeeeeee. Hahahas. (:

Oh yeah, about the previous post i said i knew what baby's surprise was right. So he changed his idea about buying that fucking cute soft toy i was eyeing the other day at suntec. He bought me flowers instead! :D Love baby, was so shocked that he bought flowers for me lahh. Cause he was like telling me, give flowers so common, flowers will die, blahblahblah. Teehees! :D

I met baby at bugis, then we went to pray, then we went to street walk around, then we went to fusion play pool. Don't know why, i wasn't concentrating. The balls just don't want to go straight! Snores. But i still win (?), cause baby help me hit my balls into the holes. -.- Okay, like wtfook. He always let me one. Hahas.

Then we bus-ed to his house, put things. Watched tv, he bathed and i slept. He wanted to cook noodles for me one, then he realise no more noodles. Hahas. So we went down to eat. Then meet his friend at bus-stop.

Bus-ed to grandlink, see him and his friend play billiard. I'm like rotting there playing psp. Hahas. After one game, i think. We went off. Baby pei me wait for bus go back ahma hse. Then he go katong. Heeeees.

I don't know why, but daddy seems to be in a bad mood today. -.- Snoressssssssssssss.

I didn't meet baby today, and i'm unhappy about it. ):

I'm not starting work tmr, so i can meet baby tmr. Yays! (:

Baby's taking a nap now, i guess. Throw me alone. Snoresssss. Hahaas. (:

P/s: My new blogskin nice not? :D

Chanhuei: Relinked! :D x3
sinyi: Hello dear, i missed you! ):
ur lovely baby: Snores, you scared i take chopper find you eh! Heeees! Love you. (:
YIJING!: Snores, i forgot i showed it to you at home. -.-