Monday, August 25, 2008
♥Somehow, this post is contradicting
I'm sorry for blaming you, for everything i just couldn't do. And i have just hurt myself by hurting you.
I want to win in every single thing. Be it a small thing or a big thing. & I want to win at all cost. I didn't cared if i would hurt you or even myself. I just wanted to win. & yes, I'm so fucking childish. Yeah, i know it. Not to mention fucking unreasonable, maybe a bit bitchy.
Seriously not many can stand me. Only true friends will stay by my side in times of need. Thats why, i have a freaking small circle of friends. I'm an attitude freak & i love seeing others in pain. The world revolves around me & I do not revolve around the world. Well, I'm a weirdo you know.
How long can this love last? How long can you stay with me? How long can your sweetness for me last? I don't deserve you. I'm not good enough, I'm a total fucker. I don't think we'll really last long enough to satisfy my love for you. Cause a lifetime spent tgt with you ain't enough. Yeah sure, we do quarrel & have cold wars. But hey, which couples don't? I feel that when a couple have their highs & lows, then its really great to be tgt you see.
I don't feel any sense of security when I don't get to see you whenever i want to. I get all moodless & stuff, you know? Feeling that I'm about to lose you. Well hey, you can't blame me for thinking too much when lotsa girls are attracted to you okays. I can't believe a hundred percent in love, because I might end up hurting myself like fuck okays.
I don't know what the hell I'm typing over here. Seems kinda contradicting, don't you think so? Hehs.
Clutched in her hands, a dying rose. Dripping down her face, tears of death.
Dor: LOLS! & I've got weixiong! :D
Sinyi: Still continue uh! -.-
weixiong: How much is lots lots?
UPDATED.
Calling me at 11.07 instead of 10.30. Saying to come find but ended up saying you don't think you can. I'm not sleeping cause I'm waiting for you. I'm fucking sad about this matter & am crying. I don't know why the hell this is so, but I just am okays. Its kinda ridiculous & stupid to cry over such trivial matters. Whatever fuck lahh. Please just don't promise me anything when you can't do them. I beg you alrights? Fucking screwed up right now. I wish cigarettes were here to accompany me.
When you look me in the eyes
10:31:00 PM
I'm sorry for blaming you, for everything i just couldn't do. And i have just hurt myself by hurting you.
